An Actor Who Has Lived For 10,000 Years [EN]: Chapter 251

251. Episode 45 – A 10,000-Year Life (6)

“…Yuna?”

She stood at the door, her face flushed and breathing heavily, even as I called out to her.

“How did you get here, Yuna…”

Her sudden appearance took my breath away.

Just a few hours before ending my life.

And after deciding to end this long life, the person I missed and longed for the most was Song Yuna.

My parents, Manager Kim, and even Choi Seo-bin.

I thought I had contacted and met with so many people to say my goodbyes.

Of course, even that was a one-sided farewell, not mutual.

But the only person I hadn’t seen was Song Yuna.

Was it the lingering affection I had for her over a long period?

No, now that I look back at my heart accurately….

My feelings for Song Yuna might have been ‘love.’

Longing… Affection… No matter how much I tried to package it with these words, the aching feeling in my heart when I thought of her felt like more than that.

That’s why I think I kept her away even more.

Because she was someone I wouldn’t be able to see once I ended my life.

I didn’t want to disturb her heart and disappear from the world.

Even if my feelings for her were one-sided.

I decided that I shouldn’t express my feelings to Song Yuna and disappear on my way out.

Still, shouldn’t I see Song Yuna’s face just once before I go?

I had this thought countless times….

But Song Yuna appeared at this unexpected moment.

I frowned and stared at her standing there without answering.

‘This situation isn’t a dream, right….’

I swallowed a sigh and looked straight at Song Yuna, but this moment was definitely not a dream.

Looking into Song Yuna’s eyes, I opened my mouth again.

“How did you suddenly get here, Yuna…”

She suddenly started shouting, regardless of what I said.

“Why aren’t you answering your phone!”

“…Pardon?”

I flinched at Song Yuna’s shout.

She moved her body greatly, her chest and shoulders heaving, raising her voice.

“Why aren’t you coming to Korea? What are you doing in LA that you can’t be reached… No, it’s not just a day or two, how can you not be reached for months?”

“……”

At her words, I bit my lip, hesitating to answer.

In fact, I didn’t even know how to answer.

‘I was trying to distance myself from you to end my 10,000-year life?’

‘I was deliberately avoiding you because I was afraid I would miss you if I contacted you?’

I couldn’t answer her with any of those words.

I couldn’t tell her the truth, and even if I did, it wasn’t something a human could believe.

She shook her head, looking at me with my mouth shut.

“Are you saying that now that you’re doing well in Hollywood, Korean memories are over? Is that it?”

Song Yuna’s furious expression and tone.

I couldn’t tell if she had come to get angry at me or if she missed me.

In the end, I turned my gaze away from her and looked at Song Yuna’s face.

Then, I waved my hand and quickly replied.

“No. It’s not that I didn’t contact you because I’m doing well… And I didn’t abandon my memories either….”

“Then why aren’t you doing any activities, as if you’ve turned your back on the world?”

Song Yuna said, panting as if she was pouring out her anger,

Her voice was getting louder and louder.

“It’s been a while since your activities ended, so why are you only in LA? Don’t you think about the people waiting in Korea?”

At her excited tone, I hurriedly pulled her arm.

“Yuna, calm down….”

“Let go. Do you think I can calm down right now?”

“Still, let’s go inside and talk first.”

I was worried about her shouting so loudly that the hotel lobby would echo.

What if other guests came out to complain?

Moreover, if a video was taken and circulated on the internet, her and my appearance would quickly spread all over Korea.

Hurriedly grabbing Song Yuna’s wrist, I pulled her in and closed the door.

“I’m not going in. Why should I go to Heesung’s room?”

“Okay. You don’t have to come in, so let’s talk here.”

It was like facing a tense confrontation.

Song Yuna leaning against the hotel door and me looking at her.

We stood facing each other, staring into each other’s eyes.

She seemed a little calmer in the paused situation.

I carefully opened my mouth towards her.

“Yuna, so when did you come to LA?”

At my question, she closed her eyes tightly as if trying to suppress her anger and said.

“That’s not important. Why do I have to come all the way to LA to see Heesung?”

“Pardon?”

“Why… Why do I have to come all the way here for Heesung? Why are you making me come all the way here!”

Song Yuna trembled as if her emotions were gradually intensifying.

“I spent time with you in Hollywood last time, and we met and had dinner together in Korea.”

“…We did.”

“And we decided to keep in touch after that. I mean, we’re not in a relationship… but shouldn’t we be able to exchange greetings as colleagues, as members of the same company?”

At her words, I lowered my gaze and nodded.

“Yes, that’s right.”

“But were you just uncomfortable with building a friendship with me?”

I just lowered my head at her repeated question.

Song Yuna shouted as if she couldn’t understand.

“Or is it because of the scandal that broke out last time?”

“…No. It’s not that….”

“Haa….”

At Song Yuna’s long sigh, I glanced up at her face.

Her eyes seemed to be slightly teary.

Moist eyes.

Looking at those eyes, my heart ached.

“Or… do you just hate me?”

At Song Yuna’s words, my heart seemed to sink.

Her lips were trembling.

I knew too well that Song Yuna’s self-esteem was soaring high,

So the words that came out of her mouth made me panic.

Because the Song Yuna I know would never say anything that belittles herself.

What am I that she came all the way to LA to get angry at me in front of me,

And even has tears welling up like this?

Beyond embarrassment, I wanted to hug her tightly.

I just wanted to comfort Song Yuna.

I was full of apologies, but in the meantime, my heart that longed for her was also included.

But I couldn’t rashly hug and comfort her.

Because I will disappear from this world in about 2 hours….

I’m sorry to her, but I had to be the villain until the end.

Even if I hugged her and said I was sorry, faithful to my current emotions, I would never be able to return to her….

Song Yuna stared at the sky to avoid dropping tears,

I said in a very small voice so she could hear.

“No, it’s not that.”

“Then why are you avoiding me? You don’t hate me… but….”

She spoke slowly, pressing each word as if to hide her trembling voice.

“It’s not that I hate Yuna… it’s just….”

I couldn’t continue speaking.

Moment.

I frowned with a throbbing headache and put my hand on my head.

And when I glanced at the wall, the time was already pointing to 10 o’clock.

I thought it was a sign that the end of this pain was approaching.

Because this torment had been amplified more and more since I opened my eyes today, before meeting Song Yuna, and even now.

12 o’clock.

So, the closer the time to end my life, the more severe the headache became.

I tried not to show my pain and said to her with an indifferent face.

“Yuna, but how did you know to come here?”

At my words, she looked at me with a stiff face.

“I mean, I know you’re in LA, but how did you know about this hotel, this room….”

Before I could finish speaking, Song Yuna reached out and gestured as if to block my mouth.

Soon, she wiped away tears with the back of her hand and opened her mouth with a cold face.

“Heesung.”

“Yes?”

“Aren’t you curious why I came all the way here to see Heesung, who hasn’t contacted me for months and seems to be avoiding me?”

At her words, I nodded.

“It’s not how you found out… but why you came. Isn’t that what’s important?”

After pouring out what she wanted to say to me, Song Yuna.

She closed her eyes gently and raised and lowered her shoulders.

“…That’s right. You really came all the way here because you couldn’t reach me?”

At my words, she opened her closed eyes and looked straight at me, opening her mouth.

“Because I keep thinking about Heesung.”

“…Pardon?”

“I keep thinking about you. Even when I’m at home, even when I’m busy on set, I keep thinking about Heesung, and it’s driving me crazy. But you don’t even answer my calls….”

“……”

I closed my lips tightly at Song Yuna’s sudden confession.

Her heart was the same as mine.

But knowing too well that we couldn’t be together, I looked at her, remembering the time I had left.

“So, it feels like I’m going crazy. What is Heesung… making me like this and avoiding me? Why are you making me come all the way here…!”

Song Yuna conveyed her innermost thoughts to me as they were.

Even so, I couldn’t convey my true feelings.

Now there were less than 2 hours left, and my head was too complicated.

I wanted to sigh when I thought about the remaining time.

But she, who doesn’t reveal her inner thoughts more than anyone else, told her story in front of me, and I couldn’t express my worried heart.

I couldn’t just reject her confession right away.

At that time, pain rushed in like a flood along with Song Yuna’s confession.

‘Ugh….’

I clenched my teeth to endure the pain as much as possible.

My head was aching as if it would break, and my heart, looking at Song Yuna standing in front of me, was in excruciating pain.

I held my breath to not show my pain.

Moment.

The face of Song Yuna, who was standing in front of me, came closer to my eyes.

She closed her eyes gently and moved closer to my face more and more quickly.

“……”

Before hearing my answer to her confession, Song Yuna placed her lips on mine.

Song Yuna’s lips touched my lips.

……!

The moment her lips touched mine, the extreme pain disappeared as if by magic.

The heart that ached with Song Yuna’s confession and my feelings for her.

The headache that felt like it would break as 12 o’clock approached to end the long 10,000-year life.

All this pain disappeared at once with her kiss.

The head that had been wandering in all the memories of the long 10,000 years.

Those memories were not pain, but seemed to be neatly packaged under the name of ‘memories.’

I couldn’t even know how long it had been since I felt this feeling of not feeling pain.

I closed my eyes without knowing it while kissing Song Yuna.

Taat-!

Song Yuna quickly took her lips off mine and took a step back.

Then, she blinked her eyes repeatedly with a flushed face.

As if she had never been bold, she turned around, opened the door, and ran out quickly.

Even while watching her leave, I couldn’t call Song Yuna out loud.

I was so embarrassed by what had just happened that I froze in place like a stone statue.

***

11 PM.

Too many things happened today.

“Maybe it’s because it’s the last day of my 10,000-year life… it was unusually long.”

I leaned back on the bed and calmly reflected on the day.

From the early morning when I opened my eyes to the warm sunlight, the places filled with memories, and the bustling downtown of LA.

And… even Song Yuna, whom I missed, whom I saw a few tens of minutes ago.

What I had to calmly recall was not just today.

My long life was also full in my head,

But there were also many people who lived with me as Jin Heesung.

But there was less than an hour left for me to warmly package each and every person and every moment and end my life, and now I really had to choose.

“The crossroads of choice….”

With a sigh, I took out the bag full of sleeping pills that I had placed on the bedside next to the bed.

I took out all the sleeping pills and shook them all into my hand.

“If I take all these sleeping pills… can I finally escape from the pain?”

Even at this moment of trying to end my life, a bitter smile broke out at the thought of being able to escape from the pain.

Tictoc tictoc-.

In the quiet hotel room.

Perhaps because it was an empty room that had been cleaned up in advance, the sound of the clock ticking was especially clear in my ears.

The sleeping pills are full in my hand.

At this moment of holding the sleeping pills tightly to swallow them all in one bite, I have to make a quick choice.

Whether to live longer in this hellish human world and repeat 10,000 years.

Or to end the 10,000 years of reincarnation and disappear from the human world….

I worried and thought about it for so long.

But with the last hour left, my head was complicated with all sorts of thoughts.

I nodded with the sleeping pills clenched tightly.

“Okay… there’s no more time to delay. Let’s decide now.”