Becoming An Idol Wasn’T On My Plan [EN]: Chapter 69

69.

“…Ji-hyun’s father being a drug dealer is a huge deal, isn’t it, Gijisaeng?”

I muttered quietly.

[I cannot comment on whether the interpretation is correct.]

Showing me dreams with such blatant symbolism is a meaningless restriction.

The face is a sample of Philopon [a type of stimulant], and ice is a slang term for Philopon. If not, a human biting ice could symbolize drug addiction.

Decorating himself with it like a necklace implies he’s generating wealth through it, which is a reasonable interpretation in this situation.

Next, that man’s face.

The sky of the face is traditionally an archetype symbolizing the paternal order, and Lee Ji-hyun within it is a representation of both protection and oppression.

Therefore, it’s Lee Ji-hyun’s father.

I knelt on one knee in front of Yoon Sung-ho, who was imprisoned before us.

“…What’s going on?”

Yoon Sung-ho raised his head. A large scar marked his face. …A fatal blow for a celebrity.

“…It’s because of you.”

A symbol of guilt, perhaps?

“You, it’s you!”

Is it a mix of possibilities and my subconscious?

“You did this!”

Unfortunately, I’m not mentally vulnerable enough to be shaken by this. After all, it hasn’t happened yet.

And…….

“I’m sorry, but I don’t think Yoon Sung-ho is that kind of person. Rather, he would have tried to protect your friend behind you. My subconscious shouldn’t try to overcome my reason so resentfully.”

Step by step, I need to suppress my subconscious and leave only the possibilities.

Then, I felt the space ripple once. …I guess that means the order of the dream is disrupted.

“…Monster, so scary.”

I listened quietly.

“…I’m so, so afraid of what the monster will do to me, to our family.”

That’s not the kind of obvious information I need.

The moment I thought that, countless gaunt thorn bushes sprouted around and entangled Yoon Sung-ho.

The person next to him turned away and whispered something to Yoon Sung-ho, who only shook his head, muttering apologies.

Clearly, that person whispered, ‘It’s not your fault, you stupid human.’

The thorn bushes increasingly bind Yoon Sung-ho. Soon, the thorn bushes go up to his neck and choke him.

‘…Does it mean suicide?’

I silently repeated to myself that it hasn’t happened yet.

As I watched it all with my own eyes, the trash next to me opened his mouth.

“That’s right, why did you defy the prince’s will, you ignorant commoner.”

…Ha.

“Only hell awaits those who rebel! When the frog opens its eyes, I will bloom marigolds with your blood.”

Stop, that’s enough.

I want to get out of this awful place now, Gijisaeng.

[Unfortunately, you can’t wake up from a dream just because you want to.]

…Damn it.

* * *

When I opened my eyes, it was 5 AM.

I got up and looked at Chae Ha-min, who was sleeping in the next bed.

The question arises, why did a person who wasn’t even visible in Chae Ha-min’s possibilities appear?

The answer I derived after some time was quite simple.

That guy’s father is a chaebol [a wealthy and influential business conglomerate owner]. He’s in a position where even someone in the underworld can’t easily touch him.

‘…Probably, given Chae Ha-min’s father’s personality, he wouldn’t have left Lee Ji-hyun’s family alone.’

I got up and went to the living room. I opened the veranda and took in the morning air as I thought.

‘…When the frog opens its eyes, it’s March. The flower language of marigolds is sorrow. The symbol of the thorn bush is sin. Being strangled by it and accepting it means frustration or depression due to guilt. If the situation unfolds more seriously, suicidal symbolic elements can even be interpreted.’

In other words, probably next March, if there are no changes in the current situation, Yoon Sung-ho will….

How big of a typhoon did a butterfly’s wings bring about?

“…Ha, damn it.”

If the thought of helping others ultimately causes the misfortune of others, then…….

“What are you doing, Dong-hwa hyung [older brother/male friend]?”

It seems like it’s Ryu Iden’s time to go exercise. I turned my head to greet him, but the words didn’t come out easily.

“…What’s wrong? Why do you look like that?”

I then realized that my expression was too stiff.

“…There is something.”

Just three letters. The moment those three syllables came out of my mouth, I felt something collapsing.

“There is. Big trouble.”

The moment I uttered those four syllables, I realized that this was the first time since my parents passed away that I had directly told someone else that I had a problem.

“Wow, I finally get to act like a hyung [older brother/male friend] this time.”

Ryu Iden, dressed in workout clothes, approached the veranda and stood next to me.

“So, what’s wrong?”

“…It’s crazy, but I saw the future.”

I blurted out unconsciously. I guess this is probably the first time this has ever happened.

At that moment, Ryu Iden paused and quietly asked.

“…Yeah, what kind of future was it?”

Well, he probably won’t believe it, so will he treat me like a madman?

“…Do you believe it?”

“You’ve never lied when you say it with that expression? What, is it a lie?”

…I couldn’t help but let out a slight laugh for a moment.

The trust of a puppy is truly amazing.

Seeing Ryu Iden’s expression slightly harden, I guess he misunderstands that it was a joke.

“…It’s real. However, I don’t know if it’s… good to talk about it or not.”

“Hmm, really? Well, it’s a bit much to say anything about the future.”

“…But do you really believe it?”

Ryu Iden laughs at my words.

“No, don’t look at me like I’m crazy. A long time ago, seeing you become a hot topic on the internet wherever you went, I wondered if you could see the future… I thought about it jokingly back then, but it was real.”

I watch Ryu Iden laugh cheerfully.

Ryu Iden is a trustworthy person in his own way. It’s my mistake that a secret I’ve kept unintentionally leaked out, but he believes the words that I would have treated as crazy for the reason that it’s me.

“…Hyung [older brother/male friend] is a properly crazy person too.”

“Hey, I’m normal enough. Unlike you, who memorized the faces of sasaengs [obsessive fans who stalk or invade the privacy of celebrities] at yesterday’s concert and told the staff to watch out for those people.”

…It’s better than being dangerous.

Ryu Iden chuckled and suddenly said in a serious voice.

“…I’m the leader, but I rely on you a lot.”

“Shut up, it’s cheesy.”

“As expected… Dong-hwa hyung [older brother/male friend]. You have no immunity to this at all.”

Ryu Iden points to my ear with his finger. How rude to point.

“Anyway, so you can rely on me too if you want. Just like I apologized to Ha-min yesterday.”

How did you know that too?

“…Okay, I’ll definitely tell you when I’ve sorted things out a bit more.”

* * *

It was around 11 AM, and I was alone in the room, while Chae Ha-min had gone to the kitchen to cook for all of us today, instead of Ryu Iden and me, who usually cook.

So, it’s time to sort things out.

First, do I have the power to bring down a drug dealer?

I, a mere idol, have no such power.

So, if I help Yoon Sung-ho, don’t even think about doing something presumptuous like eradicating drugs.

Drugs may erode society, but that’s a matter for the police, prosecutors, and the government to solve.

I just need to focus on helping Yoon Sung-ho and one person whose face I couldn’t see properly.

Second, how should I help?

There’s still plenty of time until Gyeongchip [the day when frogs wake from hibernation], when the frog opens its eyes, but it’s better to solve the problem as quickly as possible to reduce the suffering Yoon Sung-ho will endure.

So, since the omniscient Gijisaeng is on my side, it would be good to extract information and find out when Lee Ji-hyun first started using drugs.

[You have the mind of a thief.]

Shh, Gijisaeng. Even if I’m a thief, I’m a righteous one.

Anyway, if I know when she first started using drugs, I can report it a month later. Quickly, before Yoon Sung-ho takes action himself.

However, I need to report it subtly so that no harm comes to me and our team, that is, in a way that no one can guess it’s me. It would be nice to have connections with reporters or the police… but I don’t have any, so pass.

I’ll have to rack my brains about this later.

Finally, third, how should I handle the aftermath?

God A is inevitably doomed to collapse. Whether it’s Lee Ji-hyun alone or a group using drugs, it’s on the news.

However, I don’t know if the timing is the same, but when I looked at God A from the side, I could see that Lee Ji-hyun was acting as the leader.

Those who psychologically occupy the head of a group are obsessed with showing a ‘different’ appearance to show individual superiority and secure loyalty by allowing them to enjoy pleasure together.

Therefore, there is a high probability that they will fall into drugs around the same time. I guess about 80 percent of the remaining members, excluding the two who were imprisoned in the dream.

However, just because the probability is high doesn’t mean it will necessarily happen. So, I have to ask Gijisaeng about this too… Ha, I’m really sorry to Gijisaeng.

Anyway, if God A collapses, it will be difficult for Yoon Sung-ho to continue his idol life. At least, I want to help him.

Life is more precious than dreams, but that’s my position as someone who has seen the future, not Yoon Sung-ho’s position as someone who is just living an ordinary reality, and I want to help him continue to achieve his dreams as much as possible.

That’s not some pathetic sympathy, but my admiration for him, who is the only one who can embrace Seok-jun, and my own apology for being in a position where he was likely to die because of me.

…I don’t know what I can do for him right now.

Anyway, the priority now is to confirm uncertain information.

‘Gijisaeng, can the timing of when Lee Ji-hyun and the other members are exposed to drugs be resolved with a question ticket?’

[Question tickets are limited to objects that are difficult to know but are general knowledge. Questions about possibilities are especially dangerous.]

That means it’s impossible.

Well, if that were the case, the fragment of possibility, no, the dream of possibility would become meaningless.

‘…Can’t you tell me?’

And a time of silence. Gijisaeng speaks to me.

[Didn’t you say you wouldn’t rely on me?]

‘People’s lives are at stake, so to hell with pride.’

Then, Gijisaeng immediately sends several notification windows, as if trying to resolve all the parts that were difficult to understand until now.

[I wanted to see you live a successful life and live happily with your reconciled sibling, was it all in vain?]

‘…That was rather, salvation.’

[If someone keeps monopolizing the top spot in the entire school and the second-place student commits suicide, is that also the responsibility of the first-place student?]

In other words, Yoon Sung-ho’s elimination was due to my intervention, but the decision of the path after that is Yoon Sung-ho’s own problem, so why bother?

“…If I didn’t know, I might have thought so.”

What kind of crisis Yoon Sung-ho is in, and why he is in such an environment, what he was originally supposed to experience, and what he has to experience in the changed possibility.

If I didn’t know all those things, I might have been able to live happily. Humans can be happy by being ignorant.

But it’s different now. I know everything. So, even if Gijisaeng refuses.

“Of course, there must be circumstances, so if you can’t tell me, I can’t help it. I’ll try to work hard on my own.”

And the silence continues. The air is heavy. I guess you’re going to refuse…….

Ding—!

[Actually, I was already planning to tell you!]

…That’s a relief, and thank you. But wasn’t that a flow that anyone would refuse?

[It was a gift to give in return for achieving mental maturity. The question was just out of curiosity. I used to be human, so I’m very curious.]

…Is the reason you saved me also because of curiosity?

[It’s a secret.]

Anyway… it’s hard to understand.

[I will give you the information, but as you said, I have circumstances, so it’s difficult to give it to you right away.]

‘…Really, Gijisaeng.’

I want to repay Gijisaeng somehow, but can the concept of me, who is inferior, repaying such an existence even be established?

And at that moment, Chae Ha-min opens the door from outside and shouts.

“Dong-hwa! The food is ready. Come out and eat! Today!”

* * *

Gijisaeng thought as he went to Kairos’ room.

‘…What reward.’

It’s ridiculously funny. I’m already giving enough rewards.

“Kairos, I’m about to commit a crime.”

“…What?”

Kairos, who was sitting on the clock and processing work, becomes confused by the sudden crazy person.

Gijisaeng smiles brightly at such Kairos and answers.

“I’m going to directly tell you the information of the future. In my opinion, it seems like it would take about 1000 years in terms of the stopped object in the dimension I’m in charge of, what do you think?”

“You, you crazy bastard!”

“You’re so stingy. I’m voluntarily reporting it thinking about Kairos instead of trying to hide it secretly.”

“No, this! This!”

Kairos gets up on the clock and shouts.

“You, you thorn bush-like bastard!”

The voice contained an overwhelming sense of coercion that seemed impossible to resist.

But…….

“Oh my… Using metaphorical expressions based in the Palestinian region doesn’t suit you, who existed in the Greek era.”

Gijisaeng was still smiling.

“I can’t allow it, you crazy bastard!”

“Then from now on, can I turn on the time disturbance device installed throughout Siun Hall? It’s a device that I developed myself, which twists the timeline and distorts all kinds of possibilities with just one disturbance.”

Kairos was speechless at the words. When did that crazy bastard make such a bizarre device again?

“You, you son of a bitch, come here! You little punk!”

Thus began a game of tag between Gijisaeng and Kairos, set against the backdrop of the entire Siun Hall.