#28. You’re Too Difficult
2024.03.28.
“…….”
No, I was trying to reach.
……Too tall!
Escalion was too tall to even meet face to face.
Belladonna didn’t quite reach his lips, barely brushing her lips against somewhere near the tip of his chin before quickly stepping down.
‘I messed up. It would have been better not to do it at all.’
Back on the floor, Belladonna couldn’t bring herself to meet his eyes and lowered her head.
Like, what am I supposed to do with this, even I can see that…….
She let out a small sigh. She was very frustrated, but she still didn’t have the courage to speak up.
I won’t be able to do anything after all. So the result will be the same.
Disappointment and self-loathing washed over her all at once.
“What does this mean right now?”
Just then, a stiff voice came from above her head.
Worried that he might be angry, Belladonna quickly raised her head.
But what came into her view was Escalion, who was unusually flushed all over.
The faintly trembling golden eyes were even darker as he stared straight at her.
“Can I interpret this as I please?”
“…….”
“Can I interpret it my way? Huh? Bella.”
Escalion bent down, bringing his face close to hers as he asked.
Belladonna bit her lower lip once and nodded.
At the same time, she felt a hot hand on her thigh, and her body floated up towards the ceiling.
‘Oh my!’
Belladonna, who had instinctively grabbed his shoulder, quickly found her gaze blocked.
Escalion, who easily lifted Belladonna with one hand, used his other hand to firmly grab the back of her head and pull her towards him.
As is, their breaths intertwined.
‘I can’t breathe…….’
Escalion’s kisses were always a little rough and a little desperate.
He relentlessly drove her with his lips and tongue, and constantly pulled her in with the hand firmly pressed against the back of her head.
Belladonna couldn’t focus at all because of his thick tongue, which kept rummaging around inside her mouth.
Escalion walked to the bed and carefully laid Belladonna, whom he was holding, on the bed.
Just as her body seemed to spin around, she felt a soft blanket behind her back.
“Haa…….”
Escalion, breathing heavily, threw off his top with a hasty gesture.
The crumpled shirt fell powerlessly under the bed from his hand.
Belladonna, with a flushed face, looked up at him as he climbed on top of her.
She could feel her heart beating violently throughout her body. Her entire body, from the top of her head to the tips of her toes, was pounding hard.
“Bella…….”
He whispered softly above her and lowered his head again.
Hot, moist breaths and lips touched her neck.
Escalion bared his teeth and gently nibbled on Belladonna’s slender neck.
She felt an unbearable sensation. Feeling something she had never felt before, Belladonna squeezed her eyes shut and covered her mouth with both hands.
Otherwise, she felt like she would unknowingly let out a groan.
“Don’t.”
Escalion growled lowly and grabbed her hand.
He stared at her with intense eyes, then slightly turned his head and pulled Belladonna’s nightgown down below her shoulders.
The soft cotton dress, made of a single piece, flowed down as he applied force, revealing her round shoulders.
Escalion stared at her white skin for a moment as if possessed, then continued with light kisses.
Peck, peck, peck.
The pleasant sound echoed through the room.
As the taut tension eased, her stiff body slowly began to relax.
Belladonna shrugged her shoulders, feeling as if her shoulder blades and lower abdomen were tickling.
“You always smell so good.”
Escalion mumbled, with his lips on her shoulder.
“And that scent drives me crazy.”
With one hand, he carefully arranged her fallen hair, and with the other, he reached for her hand, wedging his fingers between hers and interlocking them.
Belladonna turned her head and looked at his gaze, which was very close.
‘Why is he being so gentle?’
Soft and careful touch, hot and passionate eyes…….
‘This is, like…….’
The question, ‘Do you like me?’ rose to the tip of her throat.
If she let her guard down and lost her strength even a little, it felt like it would pop out of her mouth at any moment.
“Bella.”
Just as she was blankly opening and closing her mouth, Escalion spoke first.
Belladonna closed her slightly parted lips and stared at him.
“Tell me now if you don’t want to. Because I’m not confident I can stop in the middle.”
Belladonna blinked her eyes.
If she were asked if she didn’t like it, she didn’t dislike it. But…….
‘It’s too sudden…….’
After the atmosphere had softened and the overwhelming emotions had subsided to some extent, she belatedly thought that she might have been too hasty.
Even so, was it a bit too much to run to him in a fit of anger……?
After a moment of contemplation, her gaze naturally moved to Escalion’s bare upper body.
Because he had a lot of body heat, Escalion usually didn’t wear clothes to sleep.
But to be pinned down by him like this, without anything on…….
Gulp.
Belladonna swallowed without realizing it, her eyes fixed on his magnificent pectoral muscles.
Oh, what should I do…….
“Pfft.”
Escalion, noticing her gaze, lowered his head and let out a deflating laugh.
Why are you laughing……?
“Do you know what your expression looks like right now?”
“…….”
“You’re very scared, but also just as curious.”
“…….”
“You’re anticipating, but you’re also afraid.”
That’s right.
Belladonna, feeling embarrassed that she had been hit right on the mark, turned her head away.
Escalion quietly looked down at her, then let out a deep sigh and flopped down on the bed next to her.
Lying on his side, looking at Belladonna, he spoke in a voice full of exhaustion.
“What am I supposed to do with you?”
“…….”
“Huh? Bella. How am I supposed to treat my wife?”
Escalion raised one hand and poked her cheek.
“I haven’t spent much time with women since I was born. So I don’t even know how to be with a woman, let alone a wife.”
Belladonna silently stared at him, who kept touching her cheek.
At first, she was sure that those kinds of words he occasionally uttered were just lies or pretense.
But now, it seemed to be somewhat true. No, she wanted to believe that his words were really true.
“……You’re too difficult.”
Escalion murmured lowly.
“I’ve never been so concerned and attentive to anyone in my life.”
Escalion, looking at Belladonna, who still didn’t answer, supported her back and pulled her into his arms.
Belladonna naturally settled into his arms as usual.
“I’m sorry, but I don’t think I can do what you expected today. My head is too complicated.”
Escalion gently stroked her from the back of her head to her back.
“It’s a big deal for me to have a wife, just like it is for you. I tried to not think too much about it, but it’s not working.”
“…….”
“Do you know that you keep making changes in my life?”
At his question, Belladonna peeked out of his arms and looked up at him.
Changes?
She wanted to ask, but his palm, where she could write letters, was too far away.
Belladonna inadvertently raised her finger and placed it on his chest.
The upper chest muscles were firm and flat, making it look good for writing letters.
‘Wh. a. t. ch.’
Before the word to ask what kind of change was over, Escalion pulled his body back abruptly and snatched her hand.
“Are you doing this on purpose?”
Escalion, who had once again turned his copper skin red, asked with a shocked expression.
Huh? What……?
When Belladonna looked at him with a face that she didn’t understand, he covered his eyes with one hand, along with a low groan.
“I gave you a chance, but you didn’t even notice…….”
So what…….
Belladonna withdrew her finger with an embarrassed feeling.
Escalion, who turned his body silently and looked at the ceiling to calm his breath, opened his mouth.
“Bella.”
Strangely enough, she felt that the sound of him calling her name was good to hear.
“If I give you my side, will you give me your side too?”
When Belladonna couldn’t answer, he turned his body and lay down facing her.
He asked with calm golden eyes, propping himself up on one arm.
“Will you tell me your story someday?”
Belladonna looked up at him with a confused face.
Story…….
She couldn’t figure out whether it was just a conventional word, or whether he really thought she could speak.
Escalion reached out and swept her hair back.
He pulled a handful of it towards him and brought it to his lips.
After burying his lips in her hair for a moment, he raised his attractive lips and said.
“I’ll take that as a yes.”
* * *
The next day, Belladonna, who woke up only after the sun had risen high in the sky, hurriedly looked around her side.
He’s not here…….
Escalion had gone out early in the morning, and the empty space, which had turned cold, greeted her.
“Hoo…….”
In the end, nothing happened.
After a short conversation, Escalion, who had been staring at Belladonna with deeply sunken eyes, embraced her as usual and went to sleep.
“Is it better this way…….”
Last night was, even in my opinion, too impulsive.
Thinking of Escalion, who was sitting still and breathing heavily with deeply sunken eyes, she felt as if her whole body was heating up again without her knowing it.
“Ugh……!”
Belladonna screamed very quietly and kicked the blanket she was covering with her feet.
I don’t know, I don’t know! It’s too dangerous to be with him like this! I almost spent the first night with him……!
She stopped moving at some point as she struggled.
‘Is spending the first night with him…… what I really wanted?’
She just didn’t want to go back to the stuffy and terrible Astagne after two months, and she just didn’t want to do as the sly Pope wanted.
The first night with him…….
Belladonna turned her body around and buried her face in the pillow.
“Sniff, I don’t know……. I want to go to Cirellenia soon…….”
She wanted to go somewhere completely different, not to Astagne, which she hated so much, nor to Escalion’s side, where she kept feeling strange emotions.
Knock knock.
Just then, someone knocked on the door.