Ep. 110
I quickly finished my meal and sat facing Heena on the sofa, starting to grasp the situation.
Her period stopped, right? It must be what I’m thinking, right?
“Usually, when you’re, you’re pregnant, your period stops, right? I’m not misunderstanding, am I?”
“I’m not sure, but probably…?”
“……”
Okay, deep breaths. Deep breaths.
I barely managed to hold onto my spiraling sanity. Even with my mind in turmoil, the option of getting an abortion was out of the question. Some might have to make that choice, but it wasn’t for me.
It was just Heena’s college and my entrance exam. And having to tell our parents about this. Besides that, various realistic conditions tangled together, messing up my head.
My heart sank, and my hands and feet turned cold with panic, but I tried not to show it outwardly. What would Heena do if I showed her how flustered I was?
At this moment, Heena must be the most emotionally unstable of us all…
-Hehe.
“……”
No, why is the corner of her mouth twitching like that? Is Lee Heena really anxious right now?
Even though she had been casually talking about babies and pregnancy, I thought she would be at a loss when it actually happened, like any other girl. But my girlfriend was always beyond my imagination.
She gently stroked her belly with both hands, barely suppressing the smile that seemed ready to send her to heaven.
“Heena.”
“Yeah?”
“…Shouldn’t you be a little worried? Are you happy right now?”
“Oh, no? What should we do? Should we go to the OB/GYN [Obstetrics and Gynecology doctor] together?”
“Can you at least lower the corners of your mouth? You look the happiest you’ve been lately?”
“……Hehe.”
“No… Pfft… Ah, Lee Heena, seriously… *sniff*… Pwahahahaha!!”
I was so dumbfounded that I just burst out laughing. Maybe I was half out of my mind.
Seeing Heena acting like she wasn’t worried at all, wondering what to do, made me feel like a fool for imagining all sorts of things.
After laughing like crazy and finally calming down, I said to Heena.
“Okay… Let’s go to the OB/GYN first. We need to confirm, and if it’s not pregnancy, we should get your period checked while we’re there.”
“Okay, I got it! I’ll get ready right away~”
Watching Heena’s bouncy steps as she went into the room, I leaned back on the sofa and ran my hands over my face.
Just in case, it’s better to go straight there than using a pregnancy test, to get it checked for sure.
But what if it’s really pregnancy?
—
Perhaps because she’s very healthy, Heena’s menstrual cycle was very regular. So, to be honest, I thought it was almost 100 percent, but still, just in case.
There were times when she was stressed because of group projects, so could that have had an effect?
With that faint hope, I quickly took a taxi to the nearest OB/GYN.
Inside the OB/GYN, there were several couples and women waiting for their appointments, even on a weekday, and as we, who looked like a young couple, walked past them, we subtly attracted attention. Maybe it’s because Heena is pretty.
“Your blood pressure and weight have been checked, and your registration is complete. Please have a seat and wait for a moment.”
“Thank you.”
But I had no time to pay attention to those things, and after finishing the registration, I held Heena’s hand tightly and sat quietly in my seat.
“There are so many people~”
“Yeah. Is there anything wrong with you?”
“Even if I’m pregnant, it hasn’t been long… I don’t feel anything. Don’t worry too much.”
“That’s a relief then.”
Whether it was a relief or not, I still couldn’t see any worries or anxiety in Heena. Rather, I was more nervous than Heena, sitting quietly like a convict sentenced to death for about an hour.
Following the nurse who came to call us, we had a brief interview with the doctor and then immediately had an ultrasound.
The interview wasn’t anything special. They just asked if we had used a pregnancy test before and if we were considering an abortion. I guess they ask because many people our age tend to choose that option.
Anyway, after waiting for a while after the examination, the doctor called us in again.
And we were definitely sentenced to the reality that was right in front of us. Through the ultrasound picture that the doctor showed us.
“It’s been 6 weeks. You can see the gestational sac and yolk sac are well-positioned here, right?”
“Yes!”
“…Yes.”
The small thing inside the white, round part is said to be our baby. Even while looking at it, it didn’t feel real. That this tiny thing would grow and become a baby. Is it already a baby?
“The mother is healthy, and there haven’t been any problems so far, but you may experience nausea or pain in your breasts in the future. And—”
Thanks to preparing myself to some extent before coming in here, I was able to listen to the explanation relatively calmly. About the precautions to take in the future and the schedule for future visits. Both Heena and I listened carefully, trying not to miss a word.
While explaining, the doctor operated the computer and played a video. Then, the video of the ultrasound picture she had shown us earlier was played, and soon a strange sound was mixed in.
“Can you listen carefully?”
-Whoosh! Whoosh! Whoosh whoosh!
I concentrated and listened, but I couldn’t figure out what it was. If I had to describe it, it was like the sound of wind you hear when you open the window in a fast-moving car?
So, with question marks on both of our faces, we looked at the doctor, who smiled and told us what it was.
“This is the sound of the baby’s heartbeat inside the mother. It can be confirmed from about 5 or 6 weeks, and fortunately, you were able to hear it this time.”
“T, this is it?”
“Yes. Amazing, isn’t it?”
I couldn’t have imagined it. I just thought it was the sound of the wind, but it was the baby’s heartbeat. It wasn’t as impactful as the ultrasound picture, but then I realized that a real life was inside Heena.
And it seemed that Heena felt the same way, as she was quietly shedding tears next to me.
-Drip, drip.
“This is… our baby…”
“Are you okay?”
“Yeah… Yeon-hoo, did you hear it? The heartbeat, it’s so healthy…?”
“Of course. It was so loud. I thought a train was passing by.”
“*Sniff*… Our, our baby… This is… Yeon-hoo and… *hic*… you and, my baby… *Sniffle*…”
Soon, she burst into tears while looking at the screen. I nodded to the doctor to ask for understanding, then grabbed Heena’s shoulder and pulled her into a hug.
I was also moved by the life in front of me, but Heena seemed to feel something more than that. Somehow, I no longer felt worried about the future. Rather, only a vague determination to work harder for Heena and our baby filled my heart.
Of course, we were too young to handle a new life, and we would have to receive countless help from those around us.
Still, I would have to do my best.
For me and Heena.
For our baby.
—
After that, we waited together for Heena to calm down, and we were able to hear everything we needed to know or do from the doctor. That you can get a maternity handbook from the hospital when you can hear the baby’s heartbeat, and that you need to have various tests in addition to the ultrasound we had for the first time. You may also need to take medicine if necessary.
So, I immediately had some blood tests at the hospital. And after waiting for the test results to come out, we were able to go home after scheduling future visits. With the maternity handbook we received today in hand.
Fortunately, thanks to the insurance coverage, the cost wasn’t as high as I thought, even though I had many tests. The test results were also very good without any problems.
With that, the somewhat chaotic visit to the OB/GYN ended, and Heena and I returned home, holding hands tightly as we did when we came.
And as soon as we entered the living room, we sat side by side on the sofa, letting our physically and mentally exhausted bodies rest. As we were sitting there blankly, Heena suddenly opened her mouth in a subdued voice.
“You don’t hate it, do you…?”
“What? Being pregnant?”
“Yeah…”
It was such a belated question that I couldn’t help but wonder, ‘Really, now?’ She was excited even when we went to the OB/GYN, and she had been constantly stroking her belly and smiling on the way back.
Now, with a dark look on her face, she asked me cautiously, so I answered her casually.
“There’s no way I could hate it. I’m just panicked because I’m not ready yet.”
“Really…?”
“Of course. We decided to tell our parents tomorrow, so let’s think about our baby’s nickname today. What should we call it?”
To be honest, I wasn’t completely okay. I wasn’t worried, but I felt an even greater sense of responsibility, and I was also very burdened about telling our parents tomorrow. But that didn’t mean I wanted to say anything harsh about Heena’s pregnancy. After all, I’m half responsible for the pregnancy.
“Then, then we’re going to have our baby and raise it, right?”
“No, what are you talking about when we even made a reservation at the OB/GYN together?”
“That’s right… Hehehe… Yeah, that’s right. We have to go diligently to have our baby healthy, right?”
“You have to. And don’t even think about coming into the kitchen in the future… No, wait a minute. What about your college? It’ll be 3 or 4 months into your pregnancy when the vacation ends, so you need to rest completely.”
If she tries to push herself, I will definitely stop her. Above all, health is the most important thing.
To my question, Heena answered lightly, as if she had already thought about it.
“I finished the first semester, so I’ll have to take a leave of absence starting from the second semester.”
“Can you even take a leave of absence like that?”
“Yeah. I have a reason. If you come to the same college, we might be able to go together starting from the second semester next year.”
“Wow, are you putting pressure on me? Just you wait. I swear to our baby that I’ll go to the same college.”
“Hehe, fighting!”
Fortunately, it seemed that there wouldn’t be any major problems with Heena’s college life. If she returns to school in the second semester of next year, she will have time to recover after giving birth. After that, we can get help from my mother-in-law… no, my future mother-in-law.
Then the only thing left is me, but there was no more to worry about regarding my studies. I had no choice but to quit my part-time job right away and focus entirely on the college entrance exam.
More than wanting to become a campus couple with Heena by attending the same college, I now felt a sense of responsibility to go to a good college for the sake of the baby and Heena, and for our stable future.
As such, after we finished talking about our paths, the topic was once again filled with talk about the baby.
“I was so amazed when I heard the baby’s heartbeat earlier.”
“Me too. I really felt like our baby was inside here.”
“Yeah… Now that I know it’s there, I feel like I can feel some movement… It must be moving right now, right? Its heart was beating so much.”
“Wouldn’t it be? Hmm, it’s already showing signs… Should I make it exercise? Arts and sports will be tough.”
“Puhuhu… What are you talking about to a child who hasn’t even been born yet~”
While having such a conversation, I gently placed my hand on Heena’s belly and started stroking it with her. Right now, Heena didn’t say anything about me touching her belly. She was just looking down at her belly with kind eyes.
For a while, we stroked her belly without saying a word, and then Heena opened her mouth with a soft smile.
“Sarangi.”
“Yeah?”
“Should we make our baby’s nickname Sarangi?”
“If you like it, I’m okay with it. Isn’t it a bit common?”
“I don’t care if it’s common or not… It’s just, how should I say it? It’s so lovely. You too, Yeon-hoo, and our baby. So that’s all I can think of.”
“Let’s do that then.”
In fact, I wasn’t confident in giving it a name, so I decided to fully follow Heena’s opinion. Besides, it’s pretty too.
Sarangi.
I repeated it several times in my mind, and it seemed like a very good name. As if it were really the embodiment of my and Heena’s love.
Seeing Heena smiling while constantly calling Sarangi, I felt my heart warming.
Now twenty years old.
We were just children who couldn’t even take care of ourselves, let alone a child, and we were just legally adults, but no different from young children.
I couldn’t see even an inch ahead of how our lives would be, but.
Still, I was gaining more strength in this moment of being together. When I looked at my girlfriend smiling happily in front of me, I felt like I could do anything for her.
“Our Sarangi, you have to stay still so that Mommy doesn’t hurt. Got it?”
“…Heh, hehehe… Mommy… Yeah. I’m a mom now, right?”
“That’s right, Sarangi’s mom.”
“That’s good… I like it so much, Sarangi’s dad.”
Heena’s smile, blooming brightly as she called herself Mom and me Dad.
Was brighter and more beautiful than ever before.