But if I had to choose the person who caught my eye the most, it would be the ‘dad’ and ‘daughter.’ Seeing them smile warmly at each other was truly heartwarming.
It made me feel good just watching them.
I secretly thought to myself.
The reason I was still working at this clothing store, which I had originally planned to quit around last year, might be because of those people.
I was staying because I wanted to keep seeing that scene.
“The colors are over here.”
“Thank you! I’m sorry for always asking so many questions every time I come!”
“It’s no problem~”
And thankfully, that family also remembered me. As far as I knew, they were customers who only came on weekends, and since I was always scheduled to work on weekends, we ended up seeing each other almost every time they came.
As I watched them return to their family, smiling and grateful, a corner of my heart ached a little.
‘If only I were five years younger…’
I couldn’t help but think that. Of course, even if I were five years younger, there would probably still be a four or five-year age difference, and there would definitely be many more outstanding men vying for their attention, so there was no chance to begin with.
So, in the end, all I could think was:
“I’m so jealous…”
I was so envious of the ‘dad’ who was so loved by them.
—
Hee-na and Sarang had a long talk and came up with a compromise: briefly look around the festival in the morning, have lunch with a packed lunch, and then head to the city.
It was something anyone could have thought of, but when you’re in the middle of an argument, it’s hard to accept rational solutions.
So, we woke up early in the morning, took a walk in the park while getting some fresh air, took dozens of family photos, ate the lunch I packed, and then stopped by the department store.
Hee-na originally insisted on making the lunch herself, but I did everything I could to dissuade her.
“You work late every day during the week and you’re tired. How can I let you do this? You know I don’t want you to lift a finger, right?”
“Still… I want to do something for you too…”
“Hey! It’s okay. I’m really happiest when you enjoy what I make.”
“Okay… fine.”
“Phew…”
“But you’re not saying that because my cooking tastes bad, are you?”
“No, no! What are you talking about! You know how much I enjoy everything you make for me.”
“Right?”
It felt a bit like sweet talk, but most of it was genuine. Hee-na was having a hard time because of work, so I wanted to do at least this much for her.
Anyway, we spent the morning like that and eventually arrived at the department store.
While I briefly took Somang to the restroom, Hee-na and Sarang had picked out clothes for us to wear and were holding them in their hands.
A yellow shirt for me, and a pink shirt for Somang.
I felt dizzy for a moment, but since this wasn’t the first time this had happened, I managed to keep my sanity. I didn’t have the right to choose clothes in the first place.
Even if they asked, ‘How is this?’ I couldn’t say I didn’t like it. It wasn’t just that I couldn’t say no to them, but also because their fashion sense was much better, so I ended up thinking, ‘Oh, it is okay?’ and wearing it.
“Pretty, pretty! Somang too!”
“I know, right? It really suits you~”
When I came out of the fitting room after changing, they clapped and cheered, taking pictures. I chuckled and looked down to the side, and Somang seemed to like the clothes quite a bit too.
She takes after her mom a lot, so maybe her sense is similar… Sarang is also Hee-na-like in this regard.
So, I was wearing new clothes that I felt were a bit embarrassing, but that my wife and daughter liked very much.
“I’ll put the receipt in the bag. Returns or exchanges are not possible if you remove the tags.”
“Okay.”
“Thank you for visiting us today.”
After receiving the friendly male employee’s greeting, whom I seemed to see every time I came here, I left the store and exited the department store.
The clothes that Somang and I were wearing when we left the house were in a paper bag that I was carrying, Hee-na had her arm around mine, and Sarang was holding Somang’s hand tightly as she followed behind us.
If it were a spacious park, the four of us would have walked hand in hand, but walking like that on the street would be quite a nuisance to those around us.
“Somang, do you want to share that with your sister?”
“Yes.”
“Okay~ Dad! Let’s eat that!”
“Shall we? Then can you buy two, one for Mom and Dad too?”
“Okay!”
While looking around at our surroundings, we were slowly walking down the street when Sarang pointed to a street stall selling chicken skewers.
And since I had no reason to refuse such snacks, I gave Sarang the money and asked her to get two.
Probably Sarang and I would each eat about 2/3 of it, and Hee-na and Somang would eat the rest. We were basically buying it because we wanted to eat it.
Soon, Sarang came running back to us with a chicken skewer in each hand.
“Here’s Mom’s and Dad’s!”
“Hee-na, do you want to eat first?”
“Yeah. I’ll just take a bite; you eat the rest.”
“Okay.”
“Somang! Here’s yours… no, wait a minute. Just wait. Hoo~”
Seeing me give Hee-na a chicken skewer, Sarang stopped to give one to Somang. And then she started blowing air on it.
She must have thought it was a little too hot to give it to Somang right away since it was just made. It was so cute to see her blowing on it to cool it down for her younger sister.
“Sister. I can just eat it.”
“Really? Still, you have to be careful because it’s hot. Here.”
“Ah─”
-Munch munch
Somang took a small bite and shook her head as if to say she was done, and only then did Sarang start eating her chicken skewer.
These kinds of snacks are always a part of our outings. However, if we eat too much, we might get scolded by Hee-na, so we usually only buy them once, or at most twice.
After a while, she quickly finished the chicken skewer and turned around, asking:
“What do you want to do, Sarang? Should we go to a multi-room [private karaoke room] and play games together?”
“Hmm~”
At my question, Sarang turned her eyes and pondered, then looked down at Somang, who was staring intently at a passing dog.
Seeing that, she chuckled softly and made eye contact with me. Both Sarang and I, and even Hee-na, who had taken out her phone and was taking pictures of Somang, instantly became of one mind.
The next destination was decided, even though we didn’t say anything to each other.
As if representing everyone’s feelings, I opened my mouth.
“Should we go to the place we always go to?”
“Yeah! I ran into the older sister who works there last time, and she said they got a new big dog.”
“Oh~ Somang likes big dogs, right? Hee-na too.”
“Don’t you think bigger ones are cuter? Like you~”
“Saying I’m cute is a bit… Somang! Let’s go see the dogs!”
“Let’s go!”
Just like Sarang used to be crazy about cats, Somang, who was also crazy about dogs, started jumping up and down.
So, this time, Hee-na and I grabbed Somang’s hands on either side, and Sarang linked her arm in mine as we all headed to the dog cafe.
Like always.
Hee-na was very busy, and thanks to that, it was hard to go far from home, so the things we usually did hadn’t changed.
But I thought that was enough. Even if we didn’t do anything special, even if we were always spending similar days.
It was our happy daily life, our life.
—
I got hit by a car while saving a child. When I opened my eyes, I was back to being four years old.
I was confused by the inexplicable situation, but soon my heart burned with thoughts of Hee-na.
How sad would she have been when I died? Would I be able to meet Hee-na again, even here?
I spent a day or two worrying about that, and then Monday arrived.
I boarded the daycare van, after being seen off by my mom, and arrived at the daycare center that I vaguely remembered.
“Yeonuyaa!!!!”
I was able to meet Hee-na again much sooner than I thought.
My girlfriend, who, like me, retained her previous memories.
—
When Hee-na was hospitalized, I brought up all sorts of topics to talk about to keep her company.
And among them, there was a brief mention of our daycare days. I don’t remember exactly, but the daycare I went to was probably close to Hee-na’s house.
However, Hee-na had never gone to daycare separately, so the topic didn’t last long.
But now, in front of me, was little Hee-na, whom I had only seen in pictures once, clinging to me.
“Yeonuyaa…”
“Hee-na, don’t cry.”
It was before all the children had gathered. In a corner of the daycare classroom, Hee-na and I hugged each other tightly.
First, I needed to soothe Hee-na a little more so she would stop crying before anyone saw us.
“Do you remember everything too?”
“Yeah. I remember everything since Gmyo day [the day we died in our previous life].”
After whispering to each other with our short tongues for a while, we were able to grasp the situation a little.
Hee-na realized that she had returned to the past on the same day as me, and she vaguely remembered the story I had told her, so she pestered her aunt to register her at the daycare right away that day.
After all, this was the only daycare close to Hee-na’s house. I guess she begged, saying she wanted to play with her friends?
Once I had a little understanding of the situation, the joy of meeting Hee-na again filled my heart.
Hee-na seemed to feel the same way, as she showed no intention of letting go of my hand.
And fortunately, our appearance seemed to be seen by the daycare teachers only as a heartwarming prank between children.
“It’s a relief that Hee-na made a friend as soon as she came~”
“But isn’t Hee-na’s eyes a little red? Hee-na, did you fight with Yeonu already?”
“No… I wuv Yeonu…”
“Oh my, did you make a boyfriend instead of a friend…?”
“Even a four-year-old makes a boyfriend in 5 minutes, but we…”
The teachers seemed sad at Hee-na’s answer.
Anyway, things like this unknown phenomenon or complicated things about how we came back to the past didn’t matter.
What was important was that we were able to meet each other again.
—
I wanted to see the aunt who had brought Hee-na here, but she seemed to have left Hee-na and gone somewhere right away because she had something to do.
And then the daycare routine began.
In fact, there was no way they would make children under the age of five do anything. They just had playtime, ate snacks, or took naps.
During that time, we stayed close together, putting aside all difficult stories.
“Yeonu is cute.”
“You’re cuter.”
“Hehehe… Really?”
“Yeah.”
I thought she was incredibly cute when I saw her in pictures, but four-year-old Hee-na, whom I actually got to see, was so, so cute. Her soft, squishy cheeks, the baby smell that tickled my nose, etc.
As the two of us sat side by side, holding hands tightly, the teachers smiled and left us alone.
“Aren’t those two really cute? Yeonu is also very quiet today.”
“Isn’t it because he’s in front of his girlfriend?”
“Pfft… What are you talking about!”
“It could be~ By the way, how did they get so close as soon as they saw each other?”
“What does it matter? Anyway, new kids usually cry a lot, but it’s a relief that she’s smiling while clinging to Yeonu.”
“That’s true.”
Among the children who were constantly putting things in their mouths, crying, or causing accidents, how could we, who were well-behaved and quiet, not be cute?
Of course, whether the teachers did that or not, we happily talked to each other.
“I wuv you so much… Yeonu. Don’t go anywhere anymore. Okay?”
“Yeah. I’ll never go anywhere. I’m sowwy for getting hurt.”
“It’s okay. You’re just gonna be next to me now.”
“Okay.”
I wanted to hold Hee-na’s soft hand tightly and spend time leisurely with our heads together.
“Waaaaah!!!!”
“That’s mine! You took it!!”
“Yuna, would you like to play with this then? Teacher will do it with you~”
“Noooo!!!”
Well, to be honest, it wasn’t a quiet environment. There were almost ten children, so it was very noisy.
But what did that matter? We were together now.
After playtime passed, snack time began.
“Eat this. Yeonu, you wuv gwackers [crackers].”
“You eat too. I’m okay.”
“Uuuung~ Ah!”
“Ah~”
“Is it yummy?”
“Munch… Ung. Yummy.”
“Do it for me too!”
“…They’re so lovey-dovey.”
We fed each other snacks.
“Hee-na, Yeonu, let’s pway togethew [play together].”
“Should we?”
“But what should we do? Play house?”
“Then I’m the mommy! Yeonu is the daddy!”
“I wanna be the mommy too…”
“No! Hee-na is the mommy!”
“Heeing…”
During playtime, we also played with the children at their eye level in the small playground inside the daycare center.
“I wanna eat next to Yeonu.”
“Okay, okay. Hee-na uses her spoon well~ Oh my goodness. Yeonu also spilled a lot last time, but he’s doing so well today~”
When eating, I was praised for simply using a spoon normally. Could it be that I’ll be able to live this life hearing that I’m a genius?
And then, during nap time.
“Hee-na’s seat is over there…”
“Nooo! I’m gonna sweep [sleep] with Yeonu!”
“Umm…”
“Just let her sleep there. It’ll be harder if you move her and she cries.”
“Yes, yes. Then Hee-na, you’re going to sleep here with Yeonu~”
“Yes!”
I slept side by side with Hee-na due to her strong request.
Come to think of it, isn’t this the first time I’m sleeping with Hee-na? I didn’t even get to do this when we were dating.
When I become an adult again, I’m going to do that with Hee-na this time… but how many years do I have to wait?
“Heheheh…”
“Hee-na, sleep well.”
“Ung… Yeonu you too… cute.”
Since my body was four years old, I started to fall asleep even though I didn’t intend to. So, I lay on my side and took a nap, facing each other with Hee-na.
Daycare life was truly peaceful itself. Also, something about the previous life felt a bit distant, like a signal to quickly get used to the new life.
A sense of unease that maybe all of this was a dream was sprouting in one corner of my heart, but I still believed it wasn’t. I wanted to believe it.
“Hic… don’t die…”
“I’m sowwy [sorry]. I’ll never go anywhere again.”
Because I wanted to protect Hee-na’s side for the rest of my life this time.
Because I wanted to always give my girlfriend, who was reminded of that day like a nightmare even while sleeping, only laughter.
—
Perhaps because we were sticking together too much, the teachers were looking at us a little strangely, but our first daycare life passed without any problems.
And now it was time to go home, and I was waiting for the daycare van to be prepared.
Hee-na was.
“Hee-na~ Mommy’s here. You have to go now?”
“No. I’m gonna stay with Yeonu.”
“Yeonu has to go home now too~ You can meet again tomorrow, so shall we go with the teacher?”
“Nooo!! I’m gonna stay with Yeonu!!”
She was hugging me with both arms, resisting fiercely against the teacher who was trying to lead her to her mom. It was as if she was trying to kidnap me.
Of course, I didn’t want to be separated from Hee-na either, but we were only four years old. Even if we were only elementary school students, we would have contacted them to say we were going to play more.
As Hee-na held onto me and didn’t think of letting go, the teacher couldn’t do anything. It would be difficult to force her off.
This commotion made the daycare van unable to depart, and eventually Hee-na’s mother was summoned inside.
The aunt, who came in with the teacher after a while, definitely looked younger than I remembered.
“Hee-na~ It’s time to go home now?”
“Mommy! I wanna stay with Yeonu more!”
“Oh my, did our Hee-na already make a boyfriend?”
“Yes!”
“Oh… Pfft! Ahahahahaha!!!”
At Hee-na’s immediate answer, the aunt burst into laughter on the spot. The surrounding teachers also turned their heads and chuckled.
Well, since a four-year-old daughter was doing this, they would just think it was cute.
The aunt, who had been laughing for a while as soon as she came, finally calmed down and bent her knees to talk to me.
“Yeon… Yeonu, right? Do you want to play more with our Hee-na too?”
The aunt asked kindly with a smile. At the same time, Hee-na’s arm strength became stronger, as if telling me not to even think about going back yet.
Of course, my answer was already decided.
“Yes… I wanna pway [play] more with Hee-na.”
“Really~? Hmm… Teacher, would it be okay to ask you to contact Yeonu’s mother? It’s a bit much to force the children apart…”
“Ah, then please wait a moment? We’ll talk to them first.”
Because the daycare van couldn’t move because of us, the teacher went to the corner and hurriedly made a phone call.
In the meantime, the aunt looked at me again and opened her mouth.
“Hee-na must have had fun playing with Yeonu today~ Thank you~”
“No. I wuv [love] Hee-na too.”
“Oh my, oh my, really? What should I do~ Our husband will be jealous~”
I barely held back the tears at the touch of her hand stroking my head as if I were cute.