Ep. 5
“…Sorry for crying all of a sudden.”
“No… it’s okay, but…”
Seeing her crying so hard, I couldn’t just leave her there. Not as a person, not as a human being, and definitely not as a man. Eventually, I abandoned my escape and led her to a small playground nearby.
Talking in the middle of a residential area, with her eyes red and puffy from crying, would make me look like a complete jerk. Even though I hadn’t actually done anything wrong.
Anyway, now that I’d come this far, I really wanted to hear what she was thinking. I’d already given up on backing out.
If she cried again, I felt like my heart would break from guilt.
Calming my dizzy head and sorting through my complicated feelings, I looked at her sitting on the bench.
“I think there was a slight misunderstanding… First of all, do you know who I am?”
“…Yeah. Han Yeon-woo.”
She knows my name?
I wondered if she’d seen the name tag on my school uniform, but the atmosphere didn’t suggest that kind of silly situation.
Did she really know me?
Maybe we were in the same class in kindergarten or early elementary school? It was possible that I wouldn’t recognize her if it was that far back. It’s also possible that a slightly pretty kid could become much prettier over time.
“Have we met before?”
I asked, while also trying to remember any girls I had talked to, even a little, when I was younger.
*Sigh*
No.
No matter how I thought about it, someone at her level of attractiveness would have always stood out…
“No.”
“Ah… is that so.”
I knew it, right?
“But why yesterday…”
You confessed to me.
After a brief Q&A, she seemed to have calmed down. She raised her head to meet my eyes and opened her mouth.
“It hasn’t been long since I’ve known *of* you, but I’ve known *about* you for a while. I also know that we’re the same age. So, can I drop the honorifics [formal speech]?”
“……I *just* found out that we’re the same age, but anyway, okay.”
We’re the same age!
I honestly thought she was older!
She gives off such a mature vibe!
Leaving me surprised inside, she slowly continued.
“…I sometimes pass by your school because I have things to do.”
“Then I happened to see you walking by.”
“I remembered your smiling face while talking with your friend.”
“I’ve never done this before, but for some reason, I kept thinking about you.”
“Whenever I had something to do, I waited and watched you for a while.”
“And I found out that your ending time matches my timing.”
“I thought I’d just talk to you, so I followed you a few times.”
“Then I found out the way you go home.”
“But I didn’t have the courage… I couldn’t talk to you, but I barely managed to talk to you yesterday.”
“I confessed without even realizing it.”
“So please believe me… it’s not weird…”
Feeling a tingling sensation in my heart at her gentle words, which were like a monologue and another confession.
My head was having a fierce debate.
Is this really real?
Is this really a plausible story?
Han Yeon-woo, were you *that* popular?
Enough to receive a confession from a high school girl like this?
Logically speaking, it was rejected as complete nonsense, but the event that happened in front of my eyes was still a fact, so I tried to suppress my trembling heart.
“So, you really confessed? To *me*?”
“…Could you tell me why you can’t believe it that much? Am I… not good enough?”
“No!! That’s definitely not it!!”
That’s definitely not it!
How should I explain this? Isn’t it too much of a self-esteem crushing reason to say it honestly?
“……”
No. Looking at her looking at me, it wasn’t a reason to crush my self-esteem.
It was a natural thing.
Yeah. She was embarrassed and told me honestly, so let’s be honest too. I have that much pride.
“Hoo… okay. The reason why I couldn’t believe it is…”
“Yeah.”
“…Because you’re too pretty.”
“……??”
Hmm. She doesn’t understand at all. Well, she’s lived with that beauty, so there’s no way she can know what this feels like. Moreover, she’s a girl.
“Listen carefully. Men rarely get their numbers taken or receive confessions in the first place. Unless they’re really handsome.”
“I don’t think I’m that ugly, but I’m not exactly handsome either.”
“But someone as pretty as you confessed to someone like me? To be honest, I think it’s natural to be suspicious.”
“No joke, if you grab a hundred men passing by, 99 of them will think the same thing, except for the most handsome one.”
At my sincere words without a single lie, she frowned and made a difficult expression.
As if she had never thought of that.
“You don’t hate me or anything, do you?”
“Um… I was a little scared because it felt a bit suspicious, but I don’t hate you…?”
“Then that’s enough.”
Only then does she return to her smiling face.
Looking into my eyes, she slowly opened her mouth.
“I think we had a little misunderstanding, so I’ll say it again.”
“From the first time we passed by, I liked your smiling face.”
“I kept thinking about you even after that.”
“I’ve never done this before in my life.”
“We don’t know each other well yet, but.”
“Not just a passing relationship, but.”
“I wanted to know you more.”
“Yeah… to put it another way.”
“I fell in love at first sight.”
“Will you go out with me?”
Her appearance of confessing with a bright face made me breathless.
Her gentle voice remained in my ears, making my head dizzy.
Honestly, it was still a bit hard to believe, and it was true that I was wondering if I was dreaming.
But looking at her trembling hands, even while smiling, those trivial parts were no longer important.
If someone asked me if I liked her even though I saw her for the first time yesterday, I could answer that I might have fallen in love at first sight. Who wouldn’t fall in love with her at first sight?
I had a girlfriend from elementary school until the first year of middle school. However, as soon as the schools changed, we gradually drifted apart and broke up, so it wasn’t a deep relationship.
However, it was clear that she, who was confessing in front of me, was not saying it with such a light heart.
So, if this was reality, I didn’t want to do such a stupid thing as kicking this luck away in front of my eyes. There was no reason to say such crazy things as, ‘Since we don’t know each other well, how about starting as friends?’
Suppressing my trembling heart, I opened my mouth with difficulty.
Perhaps, an answer that could completely change my future.
“Okay, let’s date.”
I hope I didn’t tremble embarrassingly? To me, who was standing there not knowing what to do even after answering.
She came to me with a bright smile.
At that bright smile, at that consistent goodwill that could be felt even with just her expression. I was a little embarrassed, but I couldn’t control my joy.
Surprisingly, I don’t even know her name yet.
I got such a pretty girlfriend.
———feat. Hee-na
She blamed herself for being a fool who confessed out of the blue yesterday and looked back on herself.
That was never the way I was going to approach him, but the moment I saw Yeon-woo’s face, everything I had thought and planned disappeared from my head.
My true feelings came out.
Of course, I knew that it would be strange for a woman who had never met him to suddenly confess, so I made up some reasons to some extent.
I was very embarrassed by my appearance of confessing first, and I only saw Yeon-woo’s back as he ran away from the spot. I was heartbroken, but I patted myself on the back, saying let’s do better next time.
Like that, today.
I waited for Yeon-woo in the same place as yesterday and greeted him with a smile.
But.
After a little conversation after that, the attitude he showed me was not goodwill, but a look mixed with wariness.
I couldn’t understand why he was reacting like that when a stranger confessed to him, even if they were of the opposite sex.
And as I took a step closer.
At the sight of him stepping back.
I felt the loneliness of realizing that it was not Yeon-woo who loved me, and I felt the fear that he might not like me.
Soon after, the moment he turned his back on me.
Without even stopping the overflowing tears, I shouted with all my might.
“Don’t go!!!!!!!!”
Why is he trying to leave?
Does he not like me?
Will we not be able to continue like this without doing anything?
That won’t do. Absolutely.
Please.
Please don’t leave me.
Don’t leave me alone again.
—
Fortunately, Yeon-woo couldn’t turn away from my desperate cry, so we were able to move to another place and have a proper conversation.
I was able to explain why I became concerned about you by mixing 90% of the truth with a little lie.
After that, the reason why he was wary of my confession was something I had never even thought of. However, I was happy that Yeon-woo was listening to my story anyway.
And to him, who still seemed to doubt my confession.
I said it again with my sincerity.
“I fell in love at first sight.
Will you go out with me?”
Although I was too stupid to learn in my previous life, I won’t do that this time.
So I hope you give me a chance.
Let’s love each other so much that anyone who sees us will think we are the happiest couple.
With that in mind, I quietly looked at him, and soon he gave me an answer.
The answer I had been hoping for.
“Okay, let’s date.”
At that moment, I couldn’t help but smile like a fool at the happiness that filled me.
I took a step closer to him, who was still a little awkward and didn’t know what to do.
Because I’m pretty.
Certainly, the current Yeon-woo may have a crush on me.
Even if he likes me, it’s definitely not.
It won’t be love.
But it’s okay.
Even though I learned to love too late, you waited for me.
This time, I’ll wait for you.
Until the day you love me.
I’ll try my best.
I’ll love you more than anyone else, Yeon-woo.
Thank you.
Thank you for meeting me again.