Ep. 61
Perhaps I could have chosen more impressive words. Truthfully, I had envisioned giving it to her casually, in a more relaxed setting. But I got caught up in the moment and the energy, and wasn’t able to prepare a proper line.
Because of that, I ended up giving it to her with somewhat clumsy words.
-Drip, drip
Fortunately, she was my girlfriend, the kind of person who would be moved to tears even by such a lackluster line and gift.
“What is this… all of a sudden…”
“I prepared it as a surprise. It’s my Christmas present for you.”
“Wasn’t it expensive…?”
Even while touched, she worried about my finances.
“Honestly, it was a little expensive, but it’s nothing compared to what I’ve received from you.”
“No… everything… everything was done by you… I haven’t done anything for you…”
Tears streamed down her face. I set the case down for a moment and wiped away her tears with the handkerchief I now habitually carried.
“Honestly, you’ve done so much more.”
“Everything was done by you… I just… just…”
I couldn’t quite understand what she was saying through her sobs, but I figured I should just accept it emotionally.
“Okay. I’ll do everything from now on. Everything you’ve done.”
“Sniff… Thank you… I love you. I love you so, so much, Yeon-hoo…”
“I love you too.”
I hugged her, who still couldn’t stop crying. I wanted her to be happy, but I didn’t expect her to be so moved that she would cry.
Hugging Hee-na, I took a moment to look back on the past year. I was able to experience so much while dating her.
Taking pictures with a girlfriend for the first time, walking down the street holding hands. Going on dates.
Studying together, and going on trips together.
Sharing kisses as naturally as breathing.
I learned what it means to like someone, that feeling, through meeting Hee-na.
I always wanted to be the one to say thank you. I think I’ve said it before.
Thank you for finding me. Really.
I love you, Hee-na.
Please continue to take care of me.
(feat. Hee-na)
The Christmas to spend with him was just around the corner.
I had been knitting a scarf for him for weeks. Perhaps because I wasn’t very skilled, it didn’t turn out as well as I had hoped.
But even if it ended up being imperfect, Yeon-hoo would be happy.
I recalled his smiling face and knitted the yarn little by little each day.
Me and Yeon-hoo, the two of us.
Just like these strands of yarn are interwoven stitch by stitch, and eventually a single scarf is completed.
Hoping that our lives would intertwine, and that one day we could look towards a single future.
—
Originally, I was only planning to visit with my brother, but unexpectedly, my whole family ended up going to Yeon-hoo’s house.
It wasn’t intentional. Still, just like Mom jokingly said it was like a formal meeting between families, it was just an early encounter. Mom and his mother had been in contact for a while now.
“You’re coming after lunch tomorrow, right?”
Yeon-hoo didn’t seem to know at all, but I thought it was his mother’s little joke, so I didn’t tell him.
It was a bit mischievous, but I wanted to see his surprised face. Just imagining it made me smile, as if I could see the cuteness.
As expected.
On Christmas Day, when my whole family gathered and entered Yeon-hoo’s house, Yeon-hoo’s face was one of utter disbelief.
It didn’t take long for him to come to his senses, but I felt a little disappointed.
I wanted to take a picture.
Lying in bed every night, looking through the photos I had taken with him was an indispensable part of my daily routine.
His ever-present smile, the terrified expression he made when watching something scary, the tears he shed on the day we watched a sad movie.
Seeing him in countless other ways allowed me to fall asleep peacefully.
Feeling regretful that I couldn’t add a new collection, we all went inside.
My parents took the alcohol they had brought and sat at the kitchen table with his mother and father, chatting.
-Kiss
I kissed Yeon-hoo, who was standing there blankly, on the cheek and got scolded a little.
It seemed he was still embarrassed to do it in front of our parents. I should get rid of this resistance by doing it even more often than before.
“In a few years, we’ll be family.”
After all, we’ll be family.
After that, we spent time playing games that my brother had brought. I had never done anything like this with my brother at home, so this was my first time trying it.
Fortunately, the game wasn’t too difficult.
Besides, next to me, I could see Yeon-hoo, who was having so much fun, laughing and talking in a loud voice.
I even felt grateful to my brother for bringing the game.
“Hee-na! You’re not going to use that on me, are you?!”
“What should I do~ There’s something I want you to do for me right now.”
But of course, I was a little jealous of the way he paid more attention to the game than to me, so I acted a little mischievous.
“This! Santa cosplay! I originally brought it for Yeon-hoo to wear, but should we make it a penalty?!”
I did my best because I absolutely couldn’t miss out on Santa cosplay Yeon-hoo, which my sister had brought.
She had also brought one for me to wear as a Christmas present for us, so Yeon-hoo and I changed into them together.
Yeon-hoo, wearing a plain Santa suit with no particular features and a red Santa hat.
What more can I say? If there were a Santa like this, I would be good all year round.
“You’re both so cute~ Look over here? Say cheese~”
“Cheese…”
“Kimchi!”
My mom took a lot of pictures for me instead. Shouting “kimchi,” which I had picked up from Yeon-hoo.
Moreover.
“Han Yeon-hoo! You should hold Lee Hee-na and take a picture!”
I vowed never to get angry at my brother, who was so thankfully shouting those words next to me, at least until the end of this year.
“Kya~ That’s a great idea! Give me a princess carry!”
I felt like I could stay on good terms with Yoon-jung unnie [older sister or female friend], who always helps me, for the rest of my life.
Still, perhaps because he was embarrassed, he hesitated a little, but when I said one more word, Yeon-hoo braced himself and lifted me up.
With my arms around his neck and being held in a princess carry, this Christmas couldn’t have been more perfect.
My heart overflowed with the desire to kiss him on the lips, but if I did, Yeon-hoo might really cry.
Although I wanted to see that side of him a little.
After a flurry of photos, the topic of marriage came up.
Of course, everyone was just joking, but the fact that such a topic came up naturally was important.
So that we could gradually accept it as a matter of course.
“Oh my, you! Of course, I’m joking~ What’s with you, you’re still in high school~”
“Haha, is that so?”
“…Hehe.”
“But it seems like our Hee-na isn’t joking, so you two should talk it over. Got it?”
“………”
Just like she said, I would have been happy to register our marriage on my next birthday, but even so, everyone would be against it.
I wanted to hurry, but I decided not to rush too much.
Time and my family are on my side.
—
As everyone started to focus more on drinking, Yeon-hoo and I sat side by side in one corner of the living room, feeding each other snacks.
Our gazes were directed towards our families, who were laughing and chatting while drinking.
Yeon-hoo’s face looked very happy as he looked at them.
I must have been the same.
Leaning my head on his shoulder, I quietly opened my mouth.
“I like this.”
“Me too.”
Yeon-hoo was more important than anything else, but my family was also precious.
I was happy that Mom and Dad and my brother were my family. I was happy that his mother and father and his brothers were Yeon-hoo’s family.
The harmony of our family.
The harmony of Yeon-hoo’s family.
It must be the harmony inherited from the families above us.
It may not always be the case, but I believe that the happiness a person possesses is something that is instilled from a young age, and that good people gather around good people.
The reason why Yeon-hoo was such a good person, both now and in the future.
It must be because his family is also made up of such people.
So I was grateful.
It was everyone here who saved me back then.
—
Yeon-hoo suggested we get some fresh air, so we went outside.
It felt refreshing to walk around the neighborhood in Santa outfits together.
Seeing that he likes wearing things like this, I should think about some more diverse outfits in the future.
As we were walking through the quiet neighborhood, perhaps because it was Christmas, he suggested we go to the playground.
As we headed there together, I thought. When we get back, I should give him the scarf I worked so hard to make.
Even though the shape was a bit rough, I believed he would like it.
If it was Yeon-hoo, he might even cry a little exaggeratedly from being so touched.
As I imagined him like that and strolled through the playground, the moment I sat down on the playground bench at his urging.
I felt a strange atmosphere.
He knelt down gently in front of me with a somewhat nervous face.
And took out a small, square case from his pocket.
“Ah…”
I felt like I knew what it was without him having to tell me.
He had mentioned getting matching rings before, but we had been dating every day, so I didn’t have much money and didn’t want to force him to get them.
But wearing something like a toy ring was also a bit much.
I liked matching various things with him as a couple, but being with him was the most important thing, and everything else was secondary.
That’s what I thought.
“Will you accept this ring?”
Tears started to flow as I looked at Yeon-hoo, who was gently opening the case and looking into my eyes.
Perhaps because of what we were talking about earlier, this situation felt like he was proposing to me.
My body was moved before my head could even process it.
“What is this… all of a sudden…”
“I prepared it as a surprise. It’s my Christmas present for you.”
“Wasn’t it expensive…?”
I was so happy that I couldn’t speak properly, but my mouth blurted out something else.
I thought it was important to be together, and that these things weren’t important.
Why are my emotions so turbulent and not listening to me?
“Honestly, it was a little expensive, but it’s nothing compared to what I’ve received from you.”
“Honestly, Hee-na, you’ve done so much more.”
That’s not true.
Everything I’ve received has been done by you.
I had tried to worry and do things on my own in my own way.
But in the end, I still couldn’t catch up.
That’s because I can’t imagine that I’ve made you feel this happiness that I’m feeling right now.
I feel like I could die right now and still smile.
“Okay. I’ll do everything from now on. Everything you’ve done.”
Thank you. But no.
If you do even more than this, I really won’t be able to catch up.
“Sniff… Thank you… I love you. I love you so, so much, Yeon-hoo…”
“I love you too.”
I love you.
More than I can express in any words.
I love you so much.
—
Yesterday more than the day before.
Today more than yesterday.
Surely, tomorrow more than today.
I will love you even more.
I thought I loved you as much as I possibly could.
But that feeling is growing more and more each day.
If I showed it all to you, you might not be able to handle it.
So, I’ll show you just a little bit more.
Over the course of decades, very slowly.
I love you, Yeon-hoo.
Please continue to take care of me.
─Side Story
“Ehehehehe!!! Look at the scarf!! Is this really what you ended up with!”
“Is that a scarf from the twisted nether [a very poorly made item]?”
“Ah, Sun-hoo hyung [older brother], shut your mouth!! Hee, Hee-na? I really like it. Thank you so much. I’ll only wear this in the winter until I die!”
“…I’ll make it prettier next year.”
“No! It’s pretty even now, okay? Ignore what those guys are saying. Okay?… Huh?”
-Kiss
“Oop!?”
“Kya~ One more time! One more time!”
“I’m sorry, our child…”
“Haha, it’s alright. Kids can be like that.”
“Eung~ I love you, Yeon-hoo!”
“Not in front of our families..! Ugh…. I love you too.”