Ep. 66
In the end, it was a mistake. The idea itself might not have been a mistake, but it was a big mistake to have only Heena and me at the negotiation table.
Heena started pouring out words as if she had been waiting for it.
“I’d stay here as much as possible, but if I have to go out, you have to tell me where you’re going. No, I’m going with you no matter what.”
“Okay.”
“And I’ll help you with your meals like before. Don’t try to eat alone if I’m away for a bit.”
“I can eat by myself. At least rice…”
“Yeon-hoo, listen carefully.”
I felt a sense of déjà vu at those words, ‘listen carefully.’ I think I said that a minute ago.
“Of course, you can eat with your left hand. But you’re not ambidextrous, are you?”
“No.”
“What if you spill? It doesn’t matter if you spill on the tray or the side table, but what if you spill on your clothes?”
“I can just change, can’t I?”
“It’s thin, so it’ll get on your body too. Then you’ll have to wash, right?”
“I guess so?”
“You can’t get water on your cast, so I’ll have to help you. Are you going to take a shower with me? Of course, I’d like that.”
No, how did it turn out like this?
“They said you can shower with a plastic bag over the cast.”
“You can’t do that every time you eat.”
“That’s true.”
“Then wouldn’t it be better if I just fed you from the side?”
“If I don’t spill…”
“You already dropped your spoon once. Are you confident?”
I wasn’t confident. It’s hard to eat with my left hand. I was planning to eat while spilling a bit, but if it spills on my clothes like Heena said, it would be a hassle in many ways.
No, but it’s weird that spilling necessarily leads to washing.
As I hesitated to answer Heena’s rapid-fire words, she moved on to the next item on the agenda, saying that this conversation was over.
“Call me when you change your clothes. I’ll help you.”
“I can really do that by myself.”
“Yeah, I know. You can put on your pants by yourself. But the top will be hard because of the buttons, right? I’ll just help with that.”
“If it’s just that much…”
Ah, but I’m not wearing anything inside on top. I’ve already shown my upper body at the beach, so I guess it doesn’t matter.
“And you wash your hair as soon as you wake up in the morning, right?”
“Yeah. I can start showering a bit later, but I wash my hair right away. It bothers me if I don’t.”
My hair tends to get oily right after I wake up, so I had to wash it no matter what. It wasn’t just that it bothered me if I didn’t wash it; it annoyed me.
“Then washing will take a long time, so do that slowly after I leave, and I’ll help you wash your hair.”
“Um…”
I reflexively tried to refuse, but I just agreed. Washing my hair with one hand would be really tough. It’s not impossible, but it would take a long time.
The problem is that as those things piled up one by one, it became completely different from what I had initially intended.
What I had initially thought was to limit the extent to which Heena took care of me so that I wouldn’t feel too burdened, but that was already out of the question.
It was just that Heena’s bag of desires had been unleashed. Because she spoke so firmly as if she were making a decision, I couldn’t argue, thinking, ‘Isn’t this not right…?’
For a while, she recited the code of conduct in the hospital room in that way, and then the conversation naturally moved on to what to do when we lived together in the future.
After all, there was hardly any reason to go outside the hospital room here.
“First of all, you know ‘I’m back’ and ‘I’m home,’ right?”
“You mean to greet properly?”
“You have to give me a kiss.”
“I see.”
That was obvious.
I thought I could accept it up to this point. It’s a situation I’ve seen a lot in manga [Japanese comics]. I wonder if Yoon-jung is still borrowing manga books from her these days.
“And before going to bed?”
“Good night?”
“Wrong. Say good night and give me a kiss. And when you wake up in the morning?”
“Hello?”
“Do you want to be punished?”
“Sorry.”
-Chu
As an apology, I gave her a short kiss on her pouting lips, and she soon grinned.
Anyway, I was in favor of kissing in the morning and evening. I had no reason to refuse. Especially to Heena, who is disheveled after waking up, I could give her a kiss a thousand times. Because she’s really cute.
“And when we’re feeling down or having a hard time.”
“Just give you a kiss?”
“Hug me and give me a kiss.”
Heena is probably saying these things half-jokingly. She likes skinship, so I think she’s telling me to do it that often.
“You can play games or do other things, but you have to be near me. And I’ll get lonely if you don’t pay attention to me, so tell me you love me every 30 minutes.”
“It’s not hard, but what if I forget?”
“I’ll confiscate your knees. I’ll sit on your lap even when you’re playing games.”
“Like you did at my house before?”
“Yeah.”
I don’t mind playing games like that as long as Heena isn’t bored. Ah, but it might be hard to play games where I unconsciously say harsh words.
“When I’m cooking, wait quietly. Or you can hug me from behind.”
Ah, that.
“Can’t I cook?”
I had been listening quietly, but I immediately objected to those words. It’s not like I’m good at cooking, but I’ve received reports about Heena’s cooking.
Heena seemed to have noticed why I volunteered to do it.
“Did oppa [an honorific term used by younger women to address older men], say something?”
“No? I didn’t hear anything?”
I quickly denied it, remembering that I had sold her out once before. But she didn’t believe me and narrowed her eyes.
“Unnecessary words…”
“No, I’m not. I want to feed you what I made.”
“Really?”
“Of course. I want you to eat the food I make when you come home and feel energized.”
Those were words I just threw out without thinking, but fortunately, Heena’s face brightened up. She makes a silly smile with her softened face.
“Heheheh… I like that…”
I felt like I was creating a swamp that I couldn’t escape from myself, but I was glad that Heena’s mood seemed to have improved a lot in the meantime.
Until a little while ago, even though she was smiling, there was a shadow on her face.
I know she likes me so much and worries about every little thing.
But I still wanted Heena to smile.
Like always, her face smiling gently and looking at me.
It was more beautiful and better than anything else in the world.
—
After that.
The few days in the hospital were uneventful. I was just stuck in the hospital room, going for tests and physical therapy. In the meantime, I took the new smartphone that my dad brought and contacted my friends.
Besides, even though I had made up my mind and had a conversation with Heena, nothing had changed from before. Except for when Heena went to school for a while, we were together all weekend. When I think about it, it was the first time we had been together like this for days.
Even when we went on a trip, it was only for a day or two at most. As I spent my days having breakfast, lunch, and dinner with Heena, there were honestly many good things.
More than anything, it was like a rehearsal for when we would live together someday.
“Good night~”
“Yeah!”
-Chu
Saying good night and then asking if I slept well after waking up in the morning and kissing me on the lips, it felt like we were really living together even though it was a hospital room.
Of course.
“Haa…”
“Heena? It’s cold, can you button me up quickly?”
“U-Uh…”
There were times when Heena’s eyes were very scary when she was buttoning up my shirt.
Heena didn’t sleep over every day; she alternated with my mom for half the time. It was hard to wash properly here, and the cot was uncomfortable, so my mom half-forced her to go back.
On the day she decided to sleep at home instead of here, I can’t forget the sad look on her face as she left when the evening visiting hours were over.
Then, one time, Yoon-sung and other friends came to visit me in the hospital.
“Typical Han Yeon-hoo.”
“I know, right.”
My friends showed an ambiguous attitude that neither teased nor praised me. The fact that I didn’t do well on the college entrance exam was a pretty serious problem for us to make fun of, and they would have felt awkward to praise me openly.
Still, I was glad that a clumsy, gloomy atmosphere wasn’t formed.
“Hey, either way, I needed to retake the exam to go to the same university as Heena. Even if I had taken it, I wouldn’t have been able to go, so not taking it because I was hospitalized while saving someone is an honorable death…”
“What the hell is that?”
I know.
Anyway, during the short hospitalization period, I got to feel like I was living with Heena, and I managed to pull myself together. On the day I went home, Heena was very sad, but I couldn’t live there.
Of course, even after I was discharged from the hospital, Heena came to my house every day after school. Now, no one touched her even if she came in and out of my house as if it were her own. She naturally came to my room and stayed close to me, and then went back home in the evening, day after day.
About a month later, I was able to completely remove the cast.
My condition wasn’t serious, and my recovery rate was very fast because I was young. There was still some stiffness left, so I had to continue rehabilitation steadily, but it was to the extent that I could do it at home without any problems.
Now that my arm is back, let’s check the current situation.
First of all, it is certain that I will retake the exam. It was obvious because I didn’t do well on the college entrance exam. Besides, my grades before meeting Heena were terrible, so it was hard to expect anything from that side.
Of course, unlike me, Heena got a college free pass. She only got three questions wrong in all subjects. The questions she got wrong weren’t difficult, but she said that she suddenly thought of my face while solving them and made a mistake while laughing.
And after much deliberation, Heena.
“Seoyeon University?”
“Yeah. My grades are good, so there shouldn’t be any problems. It’s not that far, and the tuition is cheap.”
Opinions may vary depending on the department, but it is generally the best university. Besides, it is a national university, so the tuition is relatively low, so she decided to go there.
Heena’s grades were perfect, so there were no problems on that side either. She said she had been studying quietly until she met me, but I honestly couldn’t imagine it. Judging from her personality when we go on dates, she seems to have been quite cheerful.
While cheering on and congratulating her on that decision, I was secretly sweating inside. Can I go there if I retake the exam for a year? It seems impossible.
Anyway, there was an unfortunate incident at the end of this year, but I just didn’t do well on the exam. I’m healthy and have accumulated 1 stack of good deeds, so I’m welcoming the new year with the thought that it will be better next year.
My second year-end and new year with Heena is approaching.