My Girlfriend Is Very Good To Me [EN]: Chapter 82

Ep. 81

I turned twenty. I was back to the age when I first met Yeon-hoo.

Quickly making friends with my classmates,

Getting along with everyone with a smiling face.

Never being late for appointments,

Always doing my best in group projects.

And drunkenly,

Giving a shy confession without even realizing it.

You might not be exactly the same as you were back then, but seeing you, I can clearly feel that you are still the same person.

It’s just that I’m now seeing the many clumsy sides of you that you didn’t show me, like kicking your feet vigorously underwater. And that fact makes me even happier.

Because I can know even the smallest parts of you. There’s nothing I dislike, and I just like any version of you. That feeling was the same when I was a high school student and now that I’m twenty.

Now, to the point where I’m scared of myself.

How can I care for and love someone this much? This fire doesn’t die down; how does it only get stronger day by day?

I really had no idea.

—

As if drunk on the age of twenty, I watched Yeon-hoo participate in drinking parties every day.

Sometimes following him, sometimes waiting for him. Even if I wasn’t by his side, I wasn’t too worried. It was only on New Year’s Day that he overdid it because he was relieved that his family and I were around. Yeon-hoo basically knew how to control himself.

However.

I’m not worried, but.

When he’s not by my side, I feel like a part of my chest is missing. Even when I was in high school, it was natural that I didn’t see him for longer periods during the weekdays.

But since I’ve been occupying his side since the end of the year, I feel lonely even if I don’t see him for a few hours.

And, I’m not worried about alcohol, but.

“Kang Joo-hyun? Who is that? I don’t think there’s anyone with that name among your friends… A girl? A middle school friend? Or that girl you dated for a while?”

I was worried about the people he was meeting. Most of them were high school friends, but sometimes, very rarely, I knew he met middle school friends. Of course, it wasn’t like he made appointments to meet them separately, but rather he would show his face when someone organized a gathering like a reunion.

I realized that Kang Joo-hyun was just my misunderstanding, but when I thought about the girl he used to date, I felt uncomfortable in a corner of my heart.

I knew it was a very young relationship to call it dating. And that he wasn’t lying to me.

But.

I was envious. Envious of the fact that he talked, ate, and watched movies with that young Yeon-hoo that I didn’t know.

I was jealous. Even though I couldn’t do anything by burning those feelings alone.

In addition, I also heard about the overseas trip that his friends were planning. The travel plans that he was going to go on with his friends, leaving me behind.

“Travel? Yeah, it’s okay. Although I wanted to go on my first overseas trip with you, Yeon-hoo, it’s okay if you want to go without me. Go and have fun.”

I was aware that I was being a very annoying girl for saying these things. But I couldn’t give up. Our first trip together.

“Then, shall we go on a hot springs trip to Japan later? I saw it in a meme last time, and it looked really good. Oh, Disneyland is also tempting.”

And I feel love and gratitude for Yeon-hoo, who tells me such heart-fluttering future plans without a single complaint about my whining.

A hot springs trip for just the two of us!

It will definitely be the best rest. Going to a quiet hot springs town, enjoying walks like we do here, and buying delicious things to eat.

And going to the hot springs together.

Just imagining it fills my heart with happiness.

I was already looking forward to that trip, even though there was no promise of when it would happen.

—

One day, I went with my dad to look for a room for me to live alone. In fact, there was a lot of deliberation and consultation about this. Starting with whether I really needed to live alone, even though the distance to the university was far.

Of course, I preferred to do so. If it wasn’t a big burden on my family. Naturally, the reason was because I wanted to live with Yeon-hoo. I wouldn’t bring up the topic of living together right away, but if we gradually spent more days together, wouldn’t it naturally lead to that?

No one in my family was particularly opposed. My mom and brother had already noticed my intentions, but they didn’t stop me, and my dad seemed to think it would be a good experience. Of course, under the assumption that a safe room was found according to my dad’s standards.

While doing so, I shared with my mother that I might be living alone, and she was very worried, telling me to choose a place with good security, just like my dad. I was grateful for her thinking of me like family. I must also work hard to be a good daughter-in-law.

So I went around looking at rooms here and there. Living alone was a first for me, both in the past and now, so I was excited. Besides, it was definitely going to be a place where Yeon-hoo would live with me.

“Isn’t this pretty good?”

“The sink water doesn’t drain well, and the security is poor. Not here.”

I had never lived alone, but I had been to the homes of friends who did a few times, so I thought my dad’s worries were a bit excessive. Most people lived in houses like this.

But I followed him without complaint because he was looking out for me.

But in the end, I couldn’t find a good room. So, on the way back home, promising to look again, I received a call from my dad’s friend. From my uncle, who was very close to my dad and often came to our house, so I had seen him many times.

“What? That officetel [a building with both office and residential units] building was next to Seoyeon University?”

And coincidentally, I found out that the building he owned was near the university I would be attending. He knew I had been accepted to Seoyeon University, but he didn’t bring it up because he thought I would be commuting from home.

Thanks to that, I ended up renting the place. When I looked at the photos he sent me, it was a place with everything my dad had been concerned about perfectly equipped. It would have been a big burden if I had tried to live there normally, paying monthly rent.

He said he would rent me the room at a very low price because of his friendship with my dad, so I decided on that place without further hesitation.

And the next day.

I went to Yeon-hoo and told him the good news with an excited heart.

“Yeon-hoo! Let’s go see a house!”

After picking up Yeon-hoo, who was bewildered, I met my uncle and looked around the officetel I was going to rent. In addition to the living room, there was a separate room, and I loved the view, the kitchen, the clean bathroom, and the stylish interior. Yeon-hoo was also admiring the house.

Looking at him, I was struggling to calm my overwhelming emotions. I couldn’t thank my uncle enough. In fact, I had already experienced university life itself, so I didn’t have much expectation or excitement.

But living alone was the first time in my life that I could live independently from my family, and I couldn’t help but be happy that there was a place where only Yeon-hoo and I could be together.

“Uh… am I living here too?”

And to him, who showed a reaction that was half expectation and half embarrassment, I smiled and told him ‘not yet’.

Unlike the times when we talked about it jokingly, ‘living together’ had really become a possible reality. Even if I don’t push the story in front of him right away, if he comes here to hang out and stays for a day, and then two days.

Someday we’ll be living together. A friend who used to live with her boyfriend told me that she started with that feeling.

So, instead of the immediate future, I imprint the more distant future on him.

“Our honeymoon home~ Since one room is enough anyway. If it’s just the two of us living together, we don’t really need a large space, and this size seems perfect.”

It’s heartbreaking that my time with Yeon-hoo will be reduced due to university, but I couldn’t neglect it for the sake of our future.

I have to graduate from university with good grades and get a job at a decent company.

So that I can contribute to our marriage someday.

Still, I might not like dual-income so much.

I think it would be nice if one of us stayed home so we could have our sweet time together consistently. It would be great if Yeon-hoo worked for the family, and I would protect the home he returns to, but I thought it would be okay if the opposite happened, in case another woman had her eye on Yeon-hoo.

Well, what wouldn’t be good?

Either way, it’s the future we’ll walk together.

—

A few days later, Yeon-hoo’s birthday.

I woke up early in the morning and stood in line at a bakery that was praised by my friends to buy a cake. A chocolate cake that he likes.

And after meeting Yeon-hoo, I gave him time to play games to his heart’s content, since I hadn’t been able to play games properly with him for a while due to studying and dating. Of course, he won’t be able to enjoy it comfortably because I’m clinging to him.

Looking at him munching on the cake I was feeding him, I thought he looked like a squirrel. His bulging cheeks are so cute that I want to bite them off.

“What are you doing moving around~ It’s all over here.”

But I feel sorry to bite him, so I playfully put cake cream on his face, who is concentrating on the game, and kissed him.

But for some reason, he didn’t just let my prank go and looked at me with a dumbfounded face. I was a little embarrassed by that, but anyway, the fact that he was giving me his attention instead of the game made me feel strangely happy, so I stubbornly exchanged playful words with him.

“Okay. But if it’s a lie, I’m confiscating kisses for a week. Say it again. Did I move, or was it on purpose?”

I flinched a little at that. There were times when we didn’t have a lot of skinship, but not being able to do it when we could and not being able to do it at all were completely different.

Still, I continued the prank with the thought that he wouldn’t really not do it. I was the one who told him to play the game to his heart’s content, but I was so happy that he was paying attention to me like this.

So, when I turned my head slightly without saying anything, he pinched my cheek and persistently demanded an answer.

Even so, I didn’t give in and didn’t admit my mistake, so he suddenly took a gesture as if he was going to put the cake in his mouth and feed it to me.

I quickly opened my mouth and waited.

He pretended to feed it to me, but he ate it himself. Of course, he did it as a joke, but I was so disappointed that tears welled up in my eyes.

“That’s not fair! Weren’t you going to feed it to me with your mouth just now?! You made me expect it!”

“I told you earlier? If you lie, I’ll confiscate kisses.”

“Ugh, ugh!!”

I really thought it was too much. To counter my cute prank like this. Knowing how much I like him kissing me.

In the end, I admitted defeat and apologized to him, and he burst out laughing once, and this time he properly fed me the cake.

Of course, from that moment on, the cake was no longer important.

“Chup─”

I didn’t let go of his tongue, which was putting the cake into my mouth, and got entangled with it as it was. I started a deep kiss that I hadn’t had often recently.

Since it had been a while, I didn’t want to end this kiss quickly, so I wrapped my arms around his neck and stuck to him as it was.

Then Yeon-hoo gently wrapped his arms around my head, and we kissed each other while hugging each other like that. In the middle, when he tried to pull back slightly, I bit his lips and grabbed him.

Even when I had to take my lips off for a moment because I was out of breath.

When I look into his eyes, I feel the fire that I had pushed into a corner of my heart heating up my whole body.

“Hup!”

In the end, I couldn’t stand it and coveted his lips again. I climbed onto his lap and overlapped his lips several times.

-Chop

“Ahng…”

As if responding to my kiss, Yeon-hoo kissed my nape, and I really felt like I couldn’t stand it today.

And that feeling seemed to be the same for Yeon-hoo, who had been demanding so much patience.

When our eyes met again, no more conversation was needed. Exchanging heated glances, Yeon-hoo’s hand slowly moved downwards. Soon, the moment his hand was about to touch my butt.

-Drrrrrrr

The smartphone vibration started to ring loudly. At the same time, our eyes turned to that side.

At the broken atmosphere, Yeon-hoo laughed in vain and grabbed the smartphone in his hand, and I sincerely thought.

I don’t know who it is, but I’ll never forgive them for the rest of my life.

And, the target who will live with my resentment for the rest of my life was my brother. I couldn’t show Yeon-hoo my ugly side, so I was only thinking of going home and seeing him later, while gnashing my teeth with anger.

“Work starts in March?”

At the content of the incoming call, all those trivial thoughts disappeared from my head in an instant. Soon, when he cut off the phone and looked at me, I asked him as if to confirm.

“What does that mean? Are you going to get a part-time job?”

—

After listening to Yeon-hoo’s explanation about the part-time job, the only thought that dominated my head was.

‘I’m going to be lonely.’

Before, I tried to 맞춰주다 [match] everything to Yeon-hoo as much as possible, but I also knew that I was prioritizing my desires little by little from some point on. And when he told me that he was going to get a part-time job, that selfish feeling that 잠식하다 [invaded] my heart was also due to that.

I can’t lock him up somewhere and live with him. Just studying is not very efficient when I look at his personality, so I was the one who 권한 [authorized] him to do other activities such as games together.

When he actually brought up that story, I hated it because I thought the time I wouldn’t be able to see him would be longer. Even though it’s actually me who will be busy in the future and it’s hard to make time freely, I’m trying to do whatever I want with his time.

I shouldn’t do that. That’s why I 막았다 [stopped] his consideration of saying that he doesn’t have to do it if I don’t like it. Actually, I wanted him not to do a part-time job and come to see me during that time.

Besides, the part-time job was at a cafe where most of the employees were women. I had been there a few times before, and when I looked at the atmosphere of the cafe, I thought the gender ratio wouldn’t be much different now.

It was definitely a good thing to tell him thinking of Yeon-hoo, but I couldn’t stop the anger towards my brother from filling my head.

In the end, Yeon-hoo’s remaining birthday ended with hugs and kisses to soothe my loneliness.

As soon as I got home, I called my brother.

“Why did you call?”

“No, I told him about a good spot because he said he was looking for a part-time job…”

“Why did you call?”

“There are a lot of people who want to work there, so I called because I was afraid that the spot would be taken if I didn’t get an answer quickly…”

“Why are you calling?”

“…I was wrong. I committed a sin that deserves to die…”

Even after 달달 볶다 [badgering] him for almost two hours, my anger didn’t subside. The part-time job was also a part-time job, but it was really a golden opportunity. Yeon-hoo, who was so 철벽 [impenetrable], showed a gap to that extent for the first time, probably because ‘that day’ was not far away!

In the end, I expressed my anger until right before I went to bed, and that anger continued until right before I met my brother and Yeon-hoo the next day.

But I couldn’t show Yeon-hoo that, so I managed my expression from the moment I met him. I wanted to support what he was doing.

I’ll be lonely, I was worried that other women would 달라붙다 [cling], but I can’t live with him 구속하다 [restrained] like that forever in the future.

“I’m going to look around for a while. Call me when you’re done.”

After arriving in front of the cafe, I thought he would be 신경 쓰이다 [bothered] if I went in with him, so I was going to take a walk around the area for a while after breaking up with him. That’s what I was going to do, but I came back to the cafe after only a few minutes.

It was meaningless to walk around here alone. As soon as I was away from Yeon-hoo, only loneliness was 감싸다 [enveloping] me.

So I looked around the space he would be working in from outside the cafe through the glass window. I had been there a couple of times, but I had only 들렸던 [stopped by] for a short time, so there wasn’t much that remained in my memory. It’s that the atmosphere is the kind that women would like, and that the Americano was a little delicious.

One employee who was 활기차 [lively], like Yoon-jung unnie [older sister], who was 열심히 돌아다니고 있는 [diligently moving around] the hall. One employee who was 다소곳이 [modestly] cleaning the coffee machine at the counter. And female customers sitting in various places.

The sight of the inside of the cafe, which was full of women, made me a little dizzy. The anger towards my brother 차올랐다 [rose up] again, but I barely 가라앉혔다 [calmed] it by thinking about dating Yeon-hoo after the interview.

After a while, I saw him coming out from the inside. It seemed like the interview was over. When he came out, I was going to greet him with a story that he had worked hard. However, my mouth moved on its own.

“Welcome. Did the interview go well? The people I saw before are still there. Are they all pretty? They were having a very enjoyable conversation? How was it?”

Right before he came out, Yeon-hoo’s face, who was 환히 웃어주는 [brightly smiling] to the employees, didn’t leave my head. Of course, I know that he didn’t smile with any special meaning.

This is also just my 투정 [whining], so I pretended to give in to him trying to 달래주다 [soothe] me 은근슬쩍 [slyly].

Yeon-hoo also got a drink for me, and moreover.

“But you look so pretty in it. I feel good every time I turn on Talk because of this.”

He said such pretty things to me, who wanted to change even my profile picture out of jealousy.

“I really want to take you home like this.”

Without stopping there, he holds me and even kisses me and spits out sweet words. The moment I heard those words, I felt a desire to 덮치다 [pounce on] his lips right now. But I remembered that he was 부끄러워하다 [embarrassed] kissing on the street like this, and I barely 억누르며 [suppressed] looked for a place with few people.

“Where are you going?”

“A place with no people. Come quickly!”

There’s no way I can stand this.

—

After sharing a 녹아내릴 듯한 [melting] kiss with him. After taking a walk in the neighborhood where we will live in the future. While 바라보면서 [looking at] the room that we can’t enter because of the construction, I felt that loneliness was 잠식하는 [invading] me again.

My room above is a nest where I can be with Yeon-hoo.

At the same time, it was also a space where I had to 견뎌야 [endure] loneliness alone when he was not there.

I’ve just been waiting for the moment when I can be with him, but now that I can, even more greed 스멀스멀 기어 들어왔다 [slowly crept] into my heart.

“Do you want to see me that much every day?”

“I want to put you in my pocket and carry you around.”

Like a 난장이 [dwarf] in a movie, how nice would it be if I could put him in my pocket and always be with him.

But if that happens, I won’t be able to do the same kiss that he’s giving me now, and I won’t be able to do even more than that.

“Then, I’ll kiss you much more than I have until now so that you’ll think of kisses more than loneliness later. Can you 참아주다 [bear] with that?”

That was exactly the solution I wanted. Of course, this won’t completely 가시진 [disappear] my loneliness.

Still, if his scent, the memory of kissing him, and that feeling remain even a little bit.

Just a little bit, I can 참을 수 있으니까 [endure] more.

But still.

If I could only live in your arms forever.

How nice would that be?