In an instant, my vision flipped.
This time, I was on the bottom, with Ian holding me in his arms.
*Chu.*
As I stared up at him, Ian kissed my forehead.
Then my ear, and then he slid down, lightly grazing my skin, to my neck…
The breath on my skin tickled.
I giggled for no reason, and my chest swelled.
‘I’m so happy. I feel like I’ve turned into a sugar-coated candy.’
Kissing could be so thrilling and enjoyable.
I wanted to kiss him endlessly. I didn’t want to do this with anyone other than Ian. At the same time, I didn’t want to see Ian doing this with anyone else.
“I’ll make you happy, Florin.”
After a few more kisses, Ian looked at me again and promised.
“Let’s look in the same direction and walk together towards the same place.”
Ah, how wonderful it would be if I could answer ‘yes’ right now.
But I couldn’t answer yet.
‘I shouldn’t. It’s funny to be doing this after all the kissing, but…’
“Let’s sleep together, Ian.”
So, instead of ‘yes,’ I answered him with different words.
My cheeks were flushed with shyness and excitement.
I chose you, Ian. We’ll soon be husband and wife.
The words I couldn’t bring myself to say right now rolled around inside me like small glass beads.
I wanted to spit them out and show them to him, but I had to hold back for now.
But then.
“I’m going downstairs to sleep. You sleep in the bed.”
“Huh…? Ian, are you leaving?”
Where are you going?
Startled by the sudden words, as if splashed with cold water, I grabbed his sleeve as he stood up.
‘I just mustered my courage…!’
What was the point of all my agonizing if he was just going to leave, thinking I’d sleep with him!
As I widened my eyes, Ian awkwardly touched his lips. Yet, he didn’t avoid my gaze, and I could clearly feel the heat from him, along with emotions that were still too heavy for me to understand.
“Um… I was actually trying to trick you into sleeping with me.”
“Huh?”
Ian was?
I couldn’t immediately understand what he meant, so I couldn’t let go of his sleeve.
No, actually, I should let him go… But why am I holding on? We’re not married yet! I should let him go! I should!
“…I don’t have the confidence to hold back.”
“?!”
“Sleep well, baby. Have sweet dreams.”
Ian cupped the back of my head and kissed my forehead lightly. This time, it wasn’t a sensual feeling, but really like giving a child a goodnight kiss.
“A, are you really leaving?”
The bedroom was empty.
I shouted, but Ian didn’t look back.
His gait was a bit strange, and I was worried he might miss a step on the stairs.
Of course, Ian seemed to have made it down without falling…
‘Ugh!’
Blankly, I then realized what I had just done and screamed inwardly.
‘Not only did I not let him go, but why did I grab him!’
Thud, thud.
I punched the innocent pillow, but the embarrassment didn’t fade.
I got caught up in the atmosphere! Ack! Ack!
‘What should I do… How can I face him tomorrow?’
My ears and neck turned bright red, and I buried my face in the pillow.
The first kiss was sweet yet bittersweet.
* * *
‘I’m going to die.’
Meanwhile, Ian, who had barely made it downstairs, was leaning against the wall, trying to cool down.
That was a close call, enough to send chills down his spine.
‘I almost lost my mind.’
Her eyes, looking up at him, were so innocent.
Florin firmly believed that he wouldn’t hurt her. So, she brazenly asked him to sleep with her.
If they hadn’t kissed, Ian would have gladly joined her in the same bed. He would have hugged her, coaxed her, and pretended to be a good man.
But not now. He couldn’t do that at all.
“Ah……”
As Ian lowered his head, he squeezed his eyes shut as if he had seen something he shouldn’t have.
He had deliberately gone out for a run because of this, but it was no use. He felt like he had to go out and run again.
The time… until Florin upstairs fell asleep.
‘This is something I never expected.’
During the kiss, Florin wrapped her arms around his neck. And she leaned in closer on her own.
It didn’t seem like a conscious action. If she had known, she wouldn’t have done anything to encourage him further at that precarious moment when their thighs brushed and their clothes rubbed together.
He had subtly coaxed her, but he didn’t expect her to express her affection so actively.
“Haa.”
Ian let out a short sigh.
Seeing ‘I like you’ written so purely on her face made him feel like a piece of trash for all the tricks he had been playing.
All it took was one word, ‘I like you,’ but he couldn’t say it and resorted to tricks.
‘I have to be patient. We’re not even married yet.’
Ian dropped his hand after rubbing his face roughly.
Reason slowly returned to his eyes, which had been clouded as if with shadows. As soon as it did, Ian opened the door and went out.
He felt like he needed to get some air. His heart was beating so hard that he felt like his ribs would break.
* * *
A few days later.
I returned from my trip with Ian.
In fact, I couldn’t look Ian in the eye properly after that, so there was a bit of an awkward atmosphere, but anyway, I had made up my mind.
So, on the way back in the carriage, I stayed in Ian’s arms the whole time.
“So, Father hasn’t returned yet?”
“No. But this card came, Daughter.”
Returning to the mansion after a long time, I had dinner alone with my stepmother first because my stepmother said she had something to give me….
‘A card came to Father.’
I didn’t hesitate and tore open the envelope with a knife. The content was short, so it was quickly scanned with my eyes.
“What does it say?”
“Um, he says he’s too busy to come. But……”
It seems that finding herbs is not as easy as I thought.
Seeing that he hasn’t been able to return for so long, I wonder if something has gone wrong… But there was nothing I could do to help.
I have no choice but to trust Father.
I forced a bright voice and answered my stepmother.
“Instead, he says he’ll watch the selection time via hologram.”
“Ah.”
Although the Head of the family hasn’t called me yet, it will be soon. He must be waiting eagerly.
“It’s a relief that we can meet across space with hologram communication magic, even if he can’t come in person.”
My stepmother comforted me, as if my expression had darkened.
I soon raised the corners of my lips and smiled brightly.
“Yes. That’s right.”
“Daughter, have you made your choice? Do you have any regrets about that choice?”
“No. I think I made the best decision for this country and for this family……”
My stepmother didn’t ask ‘who’ I had chosen. She just asked if I had any regrets.
I liked and appreciated that warm consideration.
‘Everyone will be tense for the next few days.’
It may seem the same as usual on the outside, but not on the inside.
Everyone was on edge, wondering who would inherit this great family.
Since Father has a stronger image as the owner of the Magic Tower than as a politician or aristocrat, many people expected that ‘someone’ I chose would lead the future Dribljane.
In numbers, they thought Father would do about 60% of the work, and the next Head of the family would do 40%.
And that was almost true. If Father had to be away for a long time like this time, the next Head of the family would take power and do the work.
“Mother, you know.”
Near the end of the meal with my stepmother.
I carefully opened my mouth.
“Who are you… supporting? I’m just curious.”
Come to think of it, I haven’t heard who my stepmother is supporting. Everyone around me is supporting one candidate or another.
Then my stepmother stared at me quietly.
Shining silver hair and blue eyes that harmonize with it. Still in a wonderful uniform. And strength that everyone acknowledges.
When someone with those things looked at me intently, I swallowed without realizing it.
“Daughter.”
“Y-yes.”
“It doesn’t matter who it is. As long as it’s someone you’ll be happy with for the rest of your life.”
“Someone… I’ll be happy with.”
“That’s right. That’s the most important thing. What good is the family if you’re not happy with them?”
My stepmother’s sincere words gently resonated in my heart.
I chuckled and jumped up from my seat, hugging my stepmother tightly.
“I’m always grateful. You’ll stay by my side in the future, right?”
“Of course. Until this life is over, I will be by your side. I will be your strongest ally when you are having a hard time, and I will help you with anything when you are suffering.”
Her blue eyes were filled with affection as she looked at me. I liked that, so I rubbed my cheeks against her and acted cute.
A very short break passed, and a few more days passed since then.
Finally, the time of selection has come.
That day was a morning when even the birds didn’t sing.