Deus Ex Machina (2)
Damn it.
‘-Mom recorded and wrote down anything that came to mind, and she kept it somewhere. The doctors said it was a good habit, remember?’
Things are going crazy.
‘-But I think that was a mistake. I can’t think of anything else…’
‘What did you say?’
From the very beginning, the initial assumption was completely wrong.
‘…Mom, what did you just say? Who did you write down as the Supreme God? It’s not Mom?’
God damn it. Why didn’t I think of that?
‘-Come on. It’s the only god in the story, how could it be Mom? It can’t be Mom, Hyunseo.’
Why? How could I not suspect it even a little?
‘-Of course, it’s the readers, including Eunseo.’
“Ha······.”
I felt like the sky and the earth were turning upside down.
I couldn’t even tell if I was standing barefoot on the living room floor or the ceiling.
Jeong Hyunseo rubbed his face several times with his palms before realizing that his glasses were not on his nose.
I guess I left them on the desk. Or some pig ate them.
“······Great.”
Oh, by the way, he was walking on the ceiling.
Because a huge phoenix’s wings had already hung him upside down!
‘······Readers? Including Jeong Eunseo?’
‘-They come every day to read our story, leave comments, and love us so much. Mom never imagined that such a thing was possible. It’s like a miracle.’
‘······Readers?’
‘-Think about your writing pattern. Aren’t they gods?’
‘Or are you a god?’ Choi Seon-ah asked back.
A few minutes ago, Jeong Hyunseo was standing blankly with his phone to his ear.
The messed-up brain couldn’t untangle the knots twisted back and forth and fell into a melting pot of confusion.
······The Supreme God of is the readers?
‘-Mom wrote the framework. It’s true that you added flesh so beautifully and richly. But did the story really go the way we wanted?’
‘······Mom.’
‘-We received feedback every day. Really, every single day without fail. We’re practically writing the story with them. How could they give us words that became our bones and flesh so sincerely…’
‘I told you not to look at malicious comments.’
‘-Why? Mom found it all fun.’
‘I’m sorry, but your second son is trapped in a novel.’
‘-Oh my, oh my.’
“Who on earth did he inherit that personality from······.”
At least it wasn’t Hyunseo.
Step, step, step. The man’s steps across the dark living room ceiling were hurried.
Holding the phone, which was still connected, he knocked hard on his youngest sibling’s door, on purpose.
-Knock knock knock! Knock knock knock! Knock knock knock!
“Jeong Eunseo, are you asleep? Sorry, but can I come in for a second······.”
-Saaa······
Then, he discovered an amazing clue from outside the door.
He almost threw another thousand won at the swear jar.
Instead, he made an internal agreement to bang his perfectly fine forehead against the wall once.
“······I’m going crazy. What is this?”
-Saaaaaa······
Through the thinly opened door, like a bookmark, dazzling golden light was flowing out.
The tingling in his forehead was no longer felt.
Without thinking any further, he stepped on the ground, turned the doorknob, and threw the door open.
-Click!
“Hey.”
“Kuh······.”
His youngest sibling was fast asleep, with her pajama pants rolled up to her knees and kicking all the blankets away.
It was a great relief that the child was at least home and seemed very safe. However······.
-Hyunseo?
“······.”
His mother’s worried voice flowed from the screen, which had been switched to speakerphone.
Hyunseo swallowed a sigh that was about to burst out and shook his head once.
“······Eunseo is fine, Mom. She’s sleeping soundly in bed right now.”
-Oh my gosh, that’s a relief. Thank you.
“······.”
If the phenomenon of emitting golden light from her whole body could be called fortunate, that is.
Of course, he didn’t continue the conversation and walked towards his sibling.
Perhaps because of her hair sticking out in all directions, she looked like a glowing jellyfish at first glance.
He reached out to shake her awake, but suddenly······.
-Saaaaaaaa······
“······If this kid is the Supreme God.”
Too many thoughts rushed to the top of his head at once.
Then, it swayed and overflowed as if it would spill over.
‘Toegong’ [short for ] was written solely for Jeong Eunseo.
He wrote it hoping that his youngest sibling, who had been receiving psychiatric counseling until the second year of high school, would relieve some stress and have a happy exam life.
His mother, whose childhood dream was to be a novelist, had been using her imagination in various ways for a long time, even while she was sick, and wanted to give it all to her youngest child.
Hyunseo just wanted to sincerely help her work.
Anyway, that was the mindset when he started.
-Ssaaaaa······
“If this kid is the biggest fragment of the Supreme God······.”
Because he knew well the guilt that Mom had towards Eunseo.
Mom was the most sorry person in the world that most of the image of you that this child remembers is not intact.
So Hyunseo, Yeseo, and the rest of the family have been doing their best so far.
He didn’t want Eunseo, who didn’t even remember her father’s face and was awkward with her mother, to feel any lack.
Even if that were the case, he desperately hoped that it would not be a deep wound for Eunseo.
He hoped that any deficiency would simply disappear as a moment’s regret, a minor complaint that could be easily covered up with other good memories······.
He sincerely hoped that no scars would remain on her young heart.
Someone might laugh and say it’s impossible.
But Hyunseo, Yeseo, and the family firmly believed in and relied on each other.
“······Can I wake her up carelessly?”
Because that was the only way they could endure it. For nearly twenty years.
-Hyunseo, what’s wrong? Did another problem arise?
“······I don’t know what will happen if I wake her up.”
If Mom made such a child a god, if she set all those many readers as gods of one world······.
“Isn’t it most important to receive the Supreme God’s gaze in life, Mom? That’s the belief setting of the Supreme God Church itself.”
And if there is one more of his siblings left in that world.
“······Can this kid take her eyes off that place?”
No, will she even wake up if I wake her up in the first place?
*
“Get lost.”
And that was the first thing I said to the three sisters.
I couldn’t hide the anger and disgust that rushed in instantly.
“······Leave only Jeong Eunseo here and get lost, you bastards.”
「······.」
「······.」
「······.」
Fortunately, the Holy Staff was in the Gaga bag.
Ether was blocked, so I couldn’t extend the length, but this was enough to threaten them.
I stood alone in front of Eunseo and faced the old women.
“Can’t you understand what I’m saying? I didn’t call you, so get lost right now.”
【······Little brother, why are you so angry?】
Then, the big Eunseo carefully asked, looking at my face.
I aimed at one of the old women and spat out as if chewing.
“People died because of those sisters.”
【Ah······. Is that so.】
“Those guys made Eliser······. They killed her, turned Mr. Pompili’s setting fragments into powder, and said crazy nonsense about plausibility······.”
【······.】
“They’re arrogant and haughty as if they’re sitting on top of people’s heads, and they spew out trashy prophecies that everything in the world will go according to their wishes. There hasn’t been a single exception from the first moment I saw them until now. They act like they have a big picture that only they know, and we can never understand it, and they arbitrarily stir up the world order and commit tyranny. They are arrogant, haughty, conceited, and even presumptuous.”
【······.】
“No one ever wanted them, and they’re not even the Supreme God, but they interfere in everything. Even when we left the Dongsan world line······!”
My jaw kept trembling, and I felt like I would bite my tongue if I didn’t speak with strength.
Hugging Tete with one arm, I vented the anger that I had been suppressing inside without any order.
“Plausibility, plausibility, they sing a damn round song, and I’m about to get neurosis! I still don’t understand! Rather, if it weren’t for those things······.”
【Brother, but, I’m sorry······.】
At that time, Eunseo tapped the side of my shoe with her little finger.
She seemed to be careful in case I fell down like before.
【Shouldn’t there be ‘plausibility’ for a novel to make sense?】
“······.”
Ah······.
My eyes closed slowly. For a moment, all the strength in my body seemed to be released and I was about to collapse.
When I somehow took a deep breath and opened my eyes, the three sisters were looking at me with the same smile.
The same smile without even one millimeter of error.
I gritted my teeth so hard that I heard a cracking sound from my jaw.
【······I kind of got a feeling after listening to you earlier? So this is a dream I’m having. You’re appearing in my dream right now. Right.】
“······.”
Eunseo was chattering diligently. I knew. This child was trying in her own way.
【But······. Even if it’s a dream, it’s still based on a novel. Because there’s an original······. Isn’t it best to set a goal and stick to the existing settings?】
“This isn’t a dream, Jeong Eunseo.”
I looked up at my sibling and answered sharply.
Then, her black eyes spread out largely like ink that had fallen wrongly on paper.
I tried my best to explain calmly.
“······You’re just reading it in the form of a dream. This is just my guess, but it’s very likely.”
【······What does that mean?】
“When I returned home, I thought that all of that might be a dream. Of course, because there were no traces anywhere. It was a time that only I remembered like a crazy person, and no one else knew. It was a more comfortable option to believe that it was all a dream. But······.”
My lips were trembling little by little. I looked straight into the child’s eyes.
“It’s not a dream, Eunseo······. None of this is a dream.”
Her young gaze was stained with confusion.
【······I hardly remember when I wake up? I barely remembered that Werner stabbed you earlier, and that was only after singing a song. I forgot all the details of the dream I had last time. I’ll forget everything I’m talking about with you right now when I wake up······.】
“Still, it’s not a dream.”
【······.】
“Even if you forget everything, the people here can’t forget anything, Eunseo.”
As soon as I finished speaking, my throat was choked up.
The sound was boiling because my Adam’s apple was too hot.
The following sentences were submerged under my throat and then came up again.
“······It’s not your fault. But a lot of people really died here.”
【······Really?】
Eunseo’s voice, asking back, was trembling slightly.
Looking at my expression, the child seemed to gradually realize the seriousness.
“Yes, it’s all real. There’s nothing fake. Even if you forget everything and go to school when you wake up······.”
【······.】
“Everyone is still here. So everyone is sincerely praying for you.”
【······.】
“Please save them. Please, just once······.”
I can’t not know that desperation now.
‘Humans crave the gaze of the Supreme God until the day they die.’
‘May the Supreme God be pleased with your life.’
“······Literally, just ‘look at them’ once. Your gaze is their lifeline.”
【······.】
I could see her blinking eyelids twitching.
Her lips, which had lost their smile, were dry, and her shoulders, which had suddenly carried too much weight, looked heavy.
I forced a smile and tapped the child’s little finger.
“······It’s okay. You didn’t know.”
【······.】
In fact, the quick-witted youngest knew better that this whole situation was not okay.
Seeing her face gradually losing its color, my mouth felt bitter for no reason.
I finally decided to voice the words that had been lingering in my mouth for a long time.
【It’s all real······.】
“You, and those people earlier······.”
【Huh? Those people?】
‘Who else was here besides me?’ Her face asking that was crumpled.
I wondered if it was possible, but Eunseo really didn’t seem to know anything.
Of course, at first, I was also flustered and scared when Jeong Eunseo suddenly disappeared and unknown people appeared randomly, and I didn’t know what to do.
Even though my condition wasn’t normal, I felt like either my head would explode or my heart would explode if I stayed like that, or at least one of the two would definitely go wrong.
But after the situation suddenly ended, there were parts that were being organized one by one.
I’m still a little confused, but if I define all of them, including Eunseo, with one word······.
“Readers. I’m talking about the fans of like you.”
Then many questions are solved.
Most of the previously mysterious parts fit together.
If you change the subject of the Supreme God from ‘writer’ to ‘reader’.
【Huh······?】
“You idiot.”
【······I can’t refute it. I feel like I’m becoming an idiot every time I open my mouth, it’s unfamiliar······.】
But if Eunseo doesn’t know, maybe those people don’t know each other’s existence either.
Of course, they don’t know what kind of existence they are and what they have done······.
‘「It is only the Supreme God’s authority to create a world line.」’
‘「It is the result of the Supreme God exercising his authority.」’
‘「How can a sacred world line born because the Supreme God wished it be the same as a world line that occurred by mere accidental accident.」’
“······You created this place with those people. In some way. So you’re the Supreme God.”
Those people don’t know anything at all. They just loved Toegong and Prince Yeseo a lot.
So they’re just thinking that they’re reading a deep dream even now.
【······I want to stop not knowing things now.】
“But you don’t know what I’m talking about, right?”
【Yeah······. I was just sitting still······. Suddenly I feel frustrated and sorry······.】
“······.”
She doesn’t know anything, but she is the only god who is served by the entire continent.
She is the most powerful supreme being in the Toegong worldview, and the only one who has the authority to create a world line that even Jeong Hyunseo has not been granted.
She has many holy knights and cherishes the priests······.
‘But in the end, by killing the Supreme God, they want to be forever free from such desires and deficiencies.’
Stop. I gripped the Holy Staff tightly and looked up at my sibling.
It was because the content of the note that my brother found in Mom’s bookshelf suddenly came to mind.
‘They lose their judgment because they are blinded by love.’
‘They will eventually establish a god themselves.’
【Why are you looking at me like that again?】
“······.”
······Then Wilhelmina Sneider, the villain of this world line······.
Was she ultimately trying to be free from the god called the reader?
Because she didn’t want to live a life bound by their gaze.
‘Like a thirsty person stabbing his own neck instead of digging a well.’
Even though without readers, the novel is just dead text.
With the desire to become a god herself. With the desire to enjoy that power directly······.
【Ah, why are you looking at me like that. I’m already upset······.】
“······Don’t worry. The emperor and other friends were coolly taking care of the guys who were trying to kill you.”
【······That seems to be just as upsetting······.】
Eunseo was grumbling. The little one’s halo was gradually shrinking.
I smiled slightly for the first time and looked at her.
The smell of Eliser’s blood rose thickly from the palm of my hand.
“······Eunseo. Can you do me a favor?”
It was then.
「That’s impossible.」
-Kooong······!
One of the three sisters, who had been silent all along, struck the bottom of the universe with a scythe.
Then, something familiar soared through the purplish nebula.
-Kugugugugu······
“······.”
It was an empty ‘Wish Holy Grail’.