Godsent Top Star [EN]: Chapter 153

The God-Given Top Star 153. Small, Trivial Changes (2) (153/401)

153. Small, Trivial Changes (2)

2022.04.02.

-Kang Yeon-woo? Who even likes him? He’s so gloomy and depressing.

-Ugh, Kang Yeon-woo’s here. Let’s go somewhere else.

-Hey! I heard your mom sees ghosts? You too? Why does a ghost-seeing freak keep hanging around instead of living with ghosts?

-OMG… Is that guy crazy? He keeps staring at empty space and muttering to himself.

-What? My father is here? Are you crazy? It’s been years since my father passed away! Who are you trying to scam?

-Excuse me. I don’t believe in that stuff. I don’t even hold memorial services [ancestral rites]. I appreciate you saying my face is lucky, but I’m not into cults, so no thanks.

I’m good at hiding my true feelings now that I’m older and wiser.

-Yeon-woo, you. How long are you going to keep building walls between yourself and other people? You’re doing better now. But why do you still avoid people?

But that doesn’t mean all the wounds from the past have healed.

The past, still buried deep, was still revealing raw wounds.

-I’m more comfortable with ghosts than people.

At least ghosts, unless they’re evil spirits, don’t harm people for no reason, just because they’re annoying.

They don’t hurl insults.

They don’t treat a person’s character as if it doesn’t exist.

They don’t stab people in the back while smiling.

Most spirits aren’t strong enough to deceive or betray someone.

-Then why don’t you just take over Yeon-hwa’s role quickly? Do you think Yeon-hwa is telling you to choose one quickly for no reason?

-Am I crazy? I’ve been avoiding that stuff all my life, and now you’re telling me to become a shaman [a religious figure believed to communicate with spirits]?

-You said you’re more comfortable with ghosts! Then you only have one thing to do.

-Absolutely not.

If I went down that path, I would become the terrible being I had heard about countless times as a child.

A being who sees ghosts, talks to ghosts, and is surrounded only by ghosts.

I can’t help but feel a sense of rejection at the thought of becoming someone others would look down on.

-Sigh. To think I’d be giving life advice to a kid like you at my age.

I remember the child spirit, who looked much younger than Yeon-woo, sighing deeply.

-Yeon-woo, the world isn’t as bleak as you think. Really. Try to believe it.

The child spirit was so serious that he even said that.

Honestly, it was hard to believe.

I’ve seen it for over a decade, how could I believe it so easily?

But.

‘It’s not bad.’

When I act, I can become someone else.

I thought I couldn’t escape this curse unless I was reborn, but…

There was a way.

A strange path I barely found in an unexpected place.

At the same time, the favor I thought I would never have was overflowing from all directions.

‘An ordinary life.’

That’s what I wanted so much.

That’s what I longed for so much.

‘It’s not bad. No… it’s good.’

This ‘ordinariness’ that I can only feel as long as I don’t die.

Yeon-woo doesn’t know how much he has longed for it.

While acting, I could live and breathe as ‘Kim Joo-young’ instead of Kang Yeon-woo.

It was always overwhelming to think that someone would show me unconditional favor.

The thing I started urgently to avoid dying had given me so many reasons.

That’s why Yeon-woo couldn’t help but fall into this work.

-When will you be happy, Yeon-woo?

The words I once heard from the child spirit.

It’s vague and faint now, but I might be able to answer it.

I think I’m feeling that happiness now.

The change happened so gradually that I didn’t even realize it myself.

But my instincts were very faithful even without me noticing.

The fact that I was playing ‘Kim Joo-young’ was proof of that.

You might think, ‘Isn’t it natural to play a role since you’re taking on a part?’

But…

‘I think I understand why Kim Joo-young couldn’t let go of Shin Yeo-won in this situation…’

‘Just staring isn’t enough. It’s better to put a lot of emotion into it here. The feeling that you need to be considerate of the other person is at the base, rather than showing your feelings of liking, but even so, big and heavy emotions can’t be easily hidden.’

‘I need to control my strength. I’m not just a lazy playboy…’

The most basic role study when taking on a role.

It’s a natural part, but a lot changes depending on how much effort you put into that stage.

Of course, studying the script is also important.

But this is also the same as skimming the surface if you don’t understand the role.

Whether the character comes to life in three dimensions.

Or whether it will be just a bland bad performance.

Whether the chemistry associated with the other actor will create synergy.

Or whether it will play the role of a hole that grabs the other person’s ankle and pulls them into the mud.

Etc.

It would be no exaggeration to say that many things are decided at this stage.

Of course, there will be changes in the process of acting and matching the ensemble.

However, the limit is set depending on whether the foundation is solid or not.

[An enchanting voice that is hard to escape once you hear it]

An A-grade ability obtained through a combination of abilities.

[Eyes filled with sadness]

An A-grade ability obtained from a European noblewoman.

[Emotional Transference]

An ability derived from eyes filled with sadness.

These abilities were wonderful abilities that helped Yeon-woo’s acting a lot.

But.

‘Abilities aren’t always all-powerful.’

Yeon-woo felt it clearly while playing ‘Kim Joo-young’ this time.

You can use your abilities as much as you want, but understanding must be the basis for using your abilities correctly.

Abilities are not cheat keys.

It means they are not all-powerful.

The effect of the result also changes depending on how and in what way you use it.

For example,

[Yeo-won. Don’t do this. Why are you saying that…?]

In this close-up scene where Joo-young grabs Yeo-won, Kim Joo-young’s facial expressions were important.

He’s just hearing that she wants to break up, but that alone makes Kim Joo-young feel a sense of despair that the whole world is collapsing.

But Kim Joo-young doesn’t give up hope.

Because he knows that Yeo-won feels the same way.

Wounded heart and despair.

But on the one hand, he still doesn’t doubt Yeo-won’s love.

That’s why he looks at Yeo-won and longs for her to come back to him.

That complex and subtle mix of eyes was not created simply by using the ‘eyes filled with sadness’ ability.

‘I have to put my emotions into it. If I were Kim Joo-young, I would have looked at Yeo-won like this.’

Yeon-woo’s eyes, filled with all sorts of emotions, created tremendous synergy as his abilities were added.

A deep understanding of the role.

And the attitude of enjoying acting on his own and being more active and proactive without realizing it.

It was a scene that would not have existed without those things.

No wonder from all over the place,

[No matter how I think about it, Kim Joo-young’s eyes seem crazy? I can’t take my eyes off of them, is it just me?]

[My grandmother once told me a story about a goblin who charms people. It was just a story she told me to make me laugh, but this time I seriously thought about it. I was almost completely charmed; Isn’t the actor who played Kim Joo-young a goblin or something?]

[Excuse me… I’m a man? But I get excited watching the male protagonist of that movie? Am I weird??? Is it just me???]

-No, you’re not the only one^^;

-My boyfriend always gets petty and angry when I praise handsome men when I go to see a movie with him, but this time, not only did he not do that, but he also took the pamphlet without saying anything, so I don’t think you’re the only one lol

These reactions were not coming out.

Yeon-woo was like this even when he was filming without realizing it.

It was fun.

It was interesting.

The means to gain lifespan gradually began to have meaning.

And…

‘This might be joy…’

Now, I was starting to wonder about things other than lifespan.

He has a power that is clearly different from other people.

But if he was completely rejected before, now it was the opposite.

Yeon-woo’s uniqueness shined even more here.

So I couldn’t help but wonder.

What made Kwon Seong-hyeon and Woo Do-gyeom agree to expand the project without any objection?

‘I’m really… curious.’

Could it be true that his uniqueness has really gained the favor of so many people?

Was he just mistaken, as Yeon Do-hee worried?

Maybe that’s why.

In the meantime, Yeon-woo did not completely cut off the collaboration between Kwon Seong-hyeon and Woo Do-gyeom.

Rather, it would be of great help in concretizing the senses that he himself could not define.

Happiness.

Or joy.

Or maybe excitement.

I was a little overwhelmed by the fact that the project had grown so much, but…

‘When you think about it, even that is helpful to me.’

This time, I was willing to watch the collaboration between the two.

Both of them tend to act as they please, but these days, they seem to have come to their senses and are trying to match this side, which is a bit admirable…

‘No.’

What kind of crazy thought is this?

Yeon-woo shook his head to clear his thoughts.

Anyway, it was too much, but the result was not bad.

“You must be nervous too, Yeon-woo?”

Yeon Do-hee asked while taking deep breaths, wondering how she had accepted it.

“I’m nervous.”

“I knew it.”

“But I’m also looking forward to it.”

“Looking forward to it?”

“Isn’t this an opportunity to see with our own eyes how much we are loved?”

*

Whether it is a phantom that exists only in numbers.

Or whether it is a frog-in-a-well-like delusion brought about by excessive marketing.

“Now that I hear you say that, you’re right, Yeon-woo.”

Yeon Do-hee nodded her head right away, as if she also had vague doubts.

“Now that I think about it, it’s a very good opportunity. To be honest, I’ve never had a movie do this well, so it’s hard to believe and it’s hard to believe… I should be looking forward to it rather than just being nervous.”

Yeon Do-hee nodded, saying she had learned something.

“I’m ashamed to hear you call me senior, Yeon-woo. I was so nervous that I couldn’t think of anything. Whew… I didn’t know mind control would be this difficult. What’s the method, Yeon-woo?”

“I remembered a simple fact.”

“What is it?”

“It seems that we are receiving more trust than we thought.”

The reason why Kwon Seong-hyeon and Woo Do-gyeom gathered their opinions for the first time in a long time, even though they were growling at each other.

That’s because they are not expecting the success of this movie, but are almost certain of it.

Even though Kwon Seong-hyeon is soft on Yeon-woo, he is a person who has been on the throne in this entertainment industry for longer than anyone else.

Of course, he should know better than anyone else about the progress of the movie.

Woo Do-gyeom is the same.

He also strangely tries to give everything to Yeon-woo, but basically he is a man who is evaluated as a cold-blooded person with no blood or tears to his opponent.

The fact that he keeps trying to give is only limited to Yeon-woo.

But even that changes a little when business is involved.

“If it’s difficult to believe in yourself, I thought we should believe in those people’s judgment.”

It’s like a shortcut, but it’s okay.

The judgment of Korea’s top actor and a cold-hearted entrepreneur cannot be wrong.

“Certainly… that would be the case. If they weren’t sure, they wouldn’t have grown the business this big.”

“That’s right.”

“I can feel Yeon-woo’s trust in those people.”

“That’s… yes?”

Yeon-woo’s words trailed off at the sudden sound while he was doing well.